hahhaha... i break a new record for this holiday. i din go to the spring mall!!!!!!!!!! hahah... although my holiday was only 2 weeks, but its still a new record. wakakakakak.... i donno why am i so happy when i din go to the spring. i don have any solid reason. its just, i dont want to go there, there are too many people and mok crik paking dkt pintu mall ya ssh.
thanks to my buddies. who understand me which din asked me to drive there.:)))) love u guys.
this post is basically about my postponed birthday celebration. mok klaka srwak lok. mls mok skipping london. campo2 la.
after celebrate with my family and my madulebah, kmk celebrate gik ngn fina. remember, the funny, crazy fren i have. my laling juak la tok. ambk nya kt umah.
first ayt.. 'kmk xmok pg spring aa' hehe.. nya pun xmok juak. gud2...
so, g lunch, kt planet 'pluto'. nya mok cia kmk mkn, tp di sebabkn my mknn sucks~, kmk refuse di cia mkn. x special lalu.... sedeh doh...
then, jln2 kt kede lua ya, g kede cina jual bju kawen, tp, xda d mok nya. siap pdh nok d mok nya pesen lamk indah... alu kua mek org dri kede ya.... trok2.. pasya g TJ, eran phl x byk org kt lam tok. pusin2... jumpa book fair. nya jumpa buku nya mok, n that book super cheap tp gaya buku ya mhl gla... siap hard cover gik ya. salute!!
kmk 2 g TJ, jln kaki dri planet ya, mula2 x ujan, tba2 time blit, ujan indah......... singgah la SP kjp.. tangga kede lmk2 dolok. ingt zaman sekolah indah. lawak li jak. pas ujan dh benti ckit, mek 2 chow.
pasya, xtauk mok g cney, nya ajak g ilek kt debah jambatan. so, mek org pun pg la.. b4 that, bli mknn lok. and present.. hehe.. byk aie adiah kmk dpt. xpnh gik sorg, brik adiah byk ya. hahahahah... makseh laling... :p
so, mek 2 'dating' la tek kt debah jambatan ya sambil mkn2 junk food and bkak present. heheh.. lpas org ngail sblh mek org tensen xpat ikn, nya blit, mek 2 pun blit juak. bkn pa... ari dh aher..
pasya kmk g jmpa madulebah lok. ad urusan lom selesai. then, i sent her back home and meet erica!! :))
lelah juak klala lam bhsa ibunda tok. k lah, ya jak.. i want to sleep lok. dh ngantok. bye. c ya.
hahahahah.. at last, no more spring for our 'date' last sunday. but there are a lot of things happen before, and after that. (sbb 22 emo x tentu pasal. hahahh)
before kua:
- argue about when to go out.
time kua:
(in the car)
- screaming and yelling at each other. wateva topics. everything just out.
- circling roundabout, cant focus while driving.
- drove the car like maniac.
(at secret recipe)
- no more yelling, screaming, and arguing.
- updating on each other
- we had a great time. coz we cant stop laughing and others were staring. hahahah..
- the food was nice too..
(window shopping)
- plan to watch movie, but i dont want 2 go to the spring. there are too many people. crowded la.
- change plan. when to window shopping. somewhere pending. think so.. onejaya, what else, cant remember the name. and the shops are not that bad.. nice.
(hi tea)
- after that, we went for hi tea. at... what is that place called? aiyoo.. forget already. belize, delizee. something like that...
- had a lil talk about everything.
after having our meal, we went straight home.
after kua:
- nothing much happen. we bump to her family and her dad said i look like my father. fyi, her dad and my dad know each other. i donno how, same village, working, i am not sure either. i'll ask later.
we had too much time together this time.. hahahaha this sentence is in positive tune k.. it is bcoz we havent watch any movie. and for the first time, we went home early. and it is good. i mean great.
its just amazing and relaxing. although it starts with the screaming and yelling. but it ends very well..:)))
perfect is boring and predictable. everyone trying or want 2 b perfect although they know everyone wasn't perfect. but, in order to achieve the highest level of our strength, we need the perfection. perfection will lead and make us to try harder and push until we are actually beyond our limit.
so, u must try to be perfect and achieve the perfection in anything u do. but in the end, just remember nothing is perfect and u already try your best to do whatever u want to do. and never lose hope in God. at least u tried to be perfect rather than u refuse to do it because u know u cant do it. u'll never know until u try.
what u give, u get back.
just random taught in the early morning.. its 2.35 a.m..
today is my birthday.. and its my 22nd birthday. ya...ya... i'm old. but this birthday is the sweetest birthday. started with my mum sing a birthday's song for me. n my dad cooked for breakfast. and the first present i've got was from my mum of course.. oranges. she knows i like that fruit. hehe...
things cant go wrong when my favorite gf came and surprised me with the cake! hehe... its just amazing... i taught we will going out tonite, instead, she came to my house and surprised me. for tonite outing, we postponed it till sunday. just wait on sunday then...:D
this day continues with some activities which i've been asked to clean up the sink. n i did it with no complaint at all. then, watched tv until i slept. hahah... around 4 or 5 p.m. i woke up and my mum asked, do u want to go out? hahahah... hell yes!
then, we having our dinner at lot 1. before that, we had been hunting for my new shoes since the old 1 seems pathetic. hehe... but, i couldn't find one. no size for me.. as usual. huhu...
and... before i forget, there was 1 lady on the phone and asked for my cousin. i donno anything about my cousin and her car been transported from kl to kuching. that lady suddenly got mad and talk something not nice. what do u want me to do miss???(talk silently)
then, i asked her to stay and just wait for a sec. after i realize i don have my cousin's number, i'll come back for her and asked for her number, and will ask my cousin to call her back. she gave her number and then, hung up. i dont even have a chance to say thank u. emm... plus, i also dont know her name.. huh!
although u r in the bad mood. dont let other people know or even hurt others. (something i learned before). but i will not make this random phone call ruin my sweetest day.
however, something bad did happen. in order to book my sister's tix, i accidentally put the wrong date.. 23 feb instead of 23 jan. waaaa...... i have a feeling this will happen, but i ignore it... and then, it happen. just like that. stupid! i hate this cause it just sound stupid. i've checked the details before purchased it. why on earth i din notice the date. ish! silly me. now, i have to change the tix. penalty rm50....
i know my dad x puas ati.. but what to do... ujan dh turun. then, i feel guilty to my mum when.. i may talk with some 'tone' with my mum.. if u know what i mean. cause of that, the next tix, my mum do it. i refuse to do it.
***i know i cant do anything, but make me do something rite... let me change the tix. its my fault. but i donno how to say it.***
btw, its frustrating when ur close friend or what u say 'geng' doesn't remember this day. and the most disappointing, when u know they knew about it. this is the first time they din wish for my birthday. maybe they have problem. think positive, they're busy..
however, an exception had been given to this crazy, funny fren, fina.. cause i know she's busy and sucks on birthday.. hahahaha... hope can go out with her tomorrow.
i'll post the pics later k.
owh, its 25 dec already. MERRY CHRISTMAS to all who celebrate Christmas! hohoho...
huwaaa..... i miss this person the most. she is awesome! hahahah.. introducing.. my lil sister!!! however, she's not here or at home.. and when the time i come home, she will not there anymore as usual she does. if only i can go and meet her there... it will be very perfect present for me.
but, dont worry... wherever u r, whatever u do, u will always be my greatest sister. and that's not because u r the only sister i have. hehe... hope 2 see u very soon.... congrats with ur result last sem. u r genius... heheh... btw, dont forget my 'ole2' ok!
assalamualaikum... to everyone. last night, 2 am plus2, i received a bad news. i lost my lovely grandma. or mostly called as embah. she was admitted to normah hospital after my aunt discover that her heartbeat is too fast. i din know the whole story coz i'm not there..
after knowing she actually having a heart attack, the doctor try everything they can to stable the heart, but she is too far gone. they had been trying almost half an hour to bring her back, but failed. we (my family) have to let her go in peace.
for the first time, i din felt anything. most of them just flash back the recent memories with her. it was so sad coz the last time i'm with her was 5 days ago. so it still fresh and new.
i donno what to say anymore, just sedekah Al-Fatihah and prayers to her.
mom, dad, wawak, bibik, mamang, u did a good and great job for taking care of her. never tired and bored to find the way to get her better. however, maybe she is better off to leave us and rest until that day. just remember, although she is not here in this world anymore, but our prayers still can connect with her. we can use this to help her go through everything that she need to get through. insyaAllah..
it was an okay holiday for me coz the holiday din went as been planned before. so many things happen which i dont like actually. for example, my parents din join this trip. it's just me and cousins. lets see.. we have 14 adults, 4 children. quite a number. i prefer small number coz not many heads to follow. btw, there are plans had been canceled such as riding horse and bike, ice skating, and what a.. forget odi. nvrmd la.
here, i would story about the holiday.. first, we went to genting highland. then, sky bridge at klcc, petrosains, sogo, mydin, a famosa resort, historical place in melaka city, zoo melaka, low yat, time square, nilai 3. thats it. its not much, but we manage to have some fun.
however, for me, most of it was babysitting the 3 years old cousin and 2 years old niece. tired.. these 2 little kids make me think whether i want to have a kid or not.. and yet, of course i want.. just not now.. i still have many things havent done yet.
while in a famosa resort, i experiences the most valuable things in my life. dont ever ever underestimates small things. think before u do and make sure u know ur limit.
and from this trip, i able to know and spend time together with my cousins which is good. because we never speak or have fun or hang out together. from this holiday also, i learn a few things about parents and teenagers. teenagers nowadays.. is totally different from old teenagers.
i have a good friend, i mean a great friend that teaches me everything i never think of. but, after that day, everything is falling a part. its hurt to know the truth. well, the truth is hard. u did broke my heart that day, but the hurting part is not that, the hardest part is to know that i am hurting u for all those years. how can i forgive myself, after what i've done 2 u.
as we already know, u and i came from different world, different background and different everything. the thing that bought me to u is we came from the same place. that's it. and there r people asking ' how can u 2 be together?' i said donno... and now i know. u entered my world. u follow my way. and i let u. thats y we can b together. and i never think of it. thanks for that.
i never ever had an intention to treat u like a punching bag or mock the way u study. i am sorry. i taught u r loud, happy, hardcore person. instead, u r also sensitive, soft and caring inside. i forget that u may also a lady... everyone has their own way of study, me myself also do what u did. i am not clever or fast learner, i juz genius. hehehe.. kidding. i don have any idea that u were offended by me. i never think that i am the person that hurt u the most. (ouchhhh...) u never say a word that ur hurt....
i had no idea that i've been burden u with all my things. u need to cheer me up, motivated me, give advices, and i don remember the others. and i like it. i like all the attentions. but, things will not b the same, coz u had to lie to make sure i'm ok. and i cant live with that. its too long, u keep ur feeling too long. i taught, we friends, good friends. u can say anything u want. but why now? why don u juz scream at me when i'm hurting u? y u must lie and pretend... it does make me want to do more. coz i donno that i'm hurting u. and i don blame u for all this. i blame myself coz din realize all these things in the first place.
btw, am i hot tempered? yes, everyone knows that. but shooting people, i donno. but i cant say i din, coz i do. sometimes, i don even know i did it. in school, i am different than now, people change, i changed with the environment. i'm rebelling. i am sorry if u got shot. i taught u can handle all the shooting i'd thrown at u (intentionally or not). sometimes, u shot me 2. but i juz don care. except the last one, i care.
after that day, i'm afraid to be with u, i'm afraid if i'll hurt u again, its hurt to know when my love one hurts. i may have no value to u, but u r one of the most valuable thing for me. u taught me to say no, be confident, and many things that never come across in my mind. and not to forget, gossip ;). and i appreciate it. u try so hard to follow my way. and u r good. i never taught that i am so hard. u r different, coz u enter my world instead i entered others. thats y u cant stand me as i cant stand others.
i maybe a bit different, cause i'm still put my pieces together after u blew it with ur bazooka that day. and i want to thank you for everything u had given me and i am so sorry for everything that i've done. i cant say it in front of u, cause i'm suck at speech. and u know that. and i know there are hikmah for all what happen. i'm juz glad to know.
p/s: i'm still new with the gun, and sometimes, it feels gud to have a gun.
i can why am i blogging? bcoz there are no one here or elsewhere can know me.i can write anything i want and anything i like or anything i feel.
living alone, is hard but it kinda awesome. its hard bcoz u only have ur lappy and phone. without them, i donno how my life gonna be. can't survive obviously. emm... now i really respect the old people, living without these gadgets.
i already submitted my chapter 1 -3 for fyp. and guess what, the scariest part come. i received a lot of comments and things that i've shouldn't do in the thesis. omg... its a lot, like u have to redo everything. i just speechless in the first place. but then, i try calm down and its not the end of the world.
after analyzing each comment one by one, i know where my mistakes are and now i have to work it out. i think after reading the comments, i become more focus on what am i doing for the fyp. although i still donno how to analys sumthing.
and, thanks to my sv of course. i can imagine if my sv is other lec, and i submit the thesis i that... wahhh... he/she wouldn't read and just send it back and say to redo..
this week is full of sadness and i dont give a shit about anything. i have 2 finish my chapter 1-3 last tuesday. but, i cant. there are some not important things flying around my head. n so, i din do my works as planned.
i heard sumeone playing guitar... hurmm.. nice actually.i wonder who.
i want to meet my mum!!! bcoz she's here... bangi 2 b precise. but i cant. coz this weekend i have to attend 'finishing school'. watever.. maybe i can c her on friday. hope so. not hope so, do so.
i donno how to say this. but i think only here i can say it out loud. i donno u and don even think i want 2 know u. just go find other things that u can messing around. but not me. i have a lot of important things to think about. i'm having final this week. even though it only one paper, but still... its a final exam........... so, i need space for myself. just give me that space. after that u can have it all again.
and stop stressing me out. u give me headache all the time. just go away. i want to sleep now. n dont ever2 think 2 enter my dreamland. u r prohibited.
p/s: this post is not related to any human in this world..
before this, i x saba nk blit kolej. but.. now, i feel like sedih mok blit kolej.. today, i woke up 8.30 in the morning. i saw my mum's face while talking to her. it's just unexplainable feeling. during lunch, i ate with my dad while watching tv. it feels so rite. and we had a high tea together which prepared by me. then, we took our dinner. together.. i miss my abg, and my sis. having dinner together is the best time ever. here, we share stories, jokes, and everything.. i think i will never get it elsewhere.
btw, after dinner, i have to prepare some cakes to be bought tomorow. my parents are there helping.. we had a great time tonite. maybe its too late for now, bcoz today is my last day. before this, i was busy with my things and they were busy with other things. we dont have much time to spend together since the holiday.
for last few days, mcm2 happen. and everything is not rite. there must be some mistakes or wrong here and there. and i, have some internal problem with my parents.. its hard to explain here, but my frens knew. and i din blame anyone for this. bcoz there is no rite or wrong. its just cycle of life. and everyone knows life is complicated and unpredictable..
i have to go now, i hope my feeling will heal soon... btw, kmk tkut mok pg kelas azlan................. and take the exam! assignment nya lom polh.. presentation fyp is coming. and kmk rsa mcmm lom sedia jak!!! huk3...
i am super happy today. hahaha. life is karma.. every sadness will be covered with happiness..
yesterday, i am super2 devastated and disappointed. bcoz of some reasons...
but, today, i am so happy. but, not for the whole day. today, sahur time, the car wont start. my bro n i need to go to grandma's house to sahur together. plus our parents are there 2. after the car wont start, so, we have to use motorcycle. same problem occur when the motorcycle also can't be started. just imagine, both of us bru bgun tido, n we need to push the motorcycle. i have to run and push the motorbike while my brother tried to start it. it was tiring and depressing. we almost give up, but i ask my bro 2 try again. den, it works. so, we had our sahur as planned.
in the morning, i help my mum 2 scrub the garage's floor. we had a great time. plus, my brother oso came 2 cheer us up. he called me 'gelama' n keep on saying, 'ma, ney gelama tek ney? lari dh nya ka?.. this moment, will be one of my best memories... he's great on cheering up the day. here, the sad, sorrow, depressing day had turn to happy and bright day..
then, i went out with wak a.k.a. my honey~~. its amazing. although, it is not much. just walking around spring... it is always spring.. we just donno where to hang out. pity.. hahah... but its ok, we figure it out later.
owh, before that, i went to fina's house to take some stuffs. n i officially met her niece. erika.. haha.. she is so cute. super adorable. hehe..
next, the happiness doesn't end here. i'm on the phone with my sis which will come back on this Thursday. talking with her, is wonderful. i can't wait to meet her face 2 face.
unfortunately... the happiness is trying to flip back. after sending my brother to the workshop, i went straight back home. but, while i'm on the way back, something happen. horn, blockage, missd junction, and so on. then.. the bad luck follow.. while i want to go to my aunt's, the car wont start again. and this time, it worse. can't start, the light keep blinking and the alarm also start to ring. arrghhh.... i hate alarm.. too loud. duhh.. that's it purpose after all...
after that, the karma not yet turning back. it almost 6 pm and i am not serving any food for breaking fast. my mum n dad just came back from indiastreet.. and asked me to do tons of works.. huhu..
in the end, the happiness came back where i had a great time while baking my cake until now.. its almost 3 am.. btw, i overslept during layering the cake.. i slept like 20 minutes and thank God, my cake din burn.. if it burn, no 1 will notice bcoz its chocolate.. it is dark btw. hahah..
i am sooo freakin sleeepy right now... i wonder when is my bedtime... hurry up cake..
hahahaha.... 1 day lps sampe umh, sonok gla.. hahahha... n, daddy soh pasang heater kt blik mndi kt ats. first time pgg drill dikpun. n drill dindin umh. hahaha.. best aie........... aok la.. kdk org x kalak. tp, polh bnda tok, bleh tmbh ilmu n pengalaman. lak, mun org soh psang heater, pande... naa....
ingt bolh psng giya2 jak ka?? ney da... mst pake bnda2 tertentu sak nya lekat kt dindin. n pasang paip nya gik. mst pake, selotep samting, sak aek nya x kua..
happy gla polh bnda tok. rasa lain alu ngn ap d blaja d klas. best! last skali, pasang nya pun wayar gik. pande lpak indh ney satu bumi, neutral and idup. tmbh2 gik, kaler wayar ya merah, ijo and itam instead of biru, coklet, ijo belang kunin. hahah.. so, solution nya, tpon abg. abg pdh, ijo-bumi, itam-idup, merah-neutral. hehe.... dh ingt blit.. hik3..
k lah, abg ku dh sampe, bh, bai..... hihi......:))))
hello2.... i'm home.. feels good and happy 2 be at home. but, the flight, that i took just now, was unpleasant and the most painful ever. i can't sleep or sit properly in the flight. i donno why, plus the plane was very slow.... 15 minutes late. i hate that flight.
my head feels like want to explode while in the plane cause of the pressure thing i think.. and then, my flu is getting worse and the ewww, disgusting mucuses keep flowing inside my throat. i can feel it flowing down slowly. plus2, i think my ears got problem too.. i can't hear my own voice and people keep on saying they can't hear my voice. but i think, i'd scream already...
things to do for this week.
- wedge yon
- assignments retaining wall
- shopping with abg
- kms rumah
- wat
- bake cakes
- go to c wak (if can la)
- and all things related.
i want to watch tv.. its been ages... i din watch tv.. off to go..
the holiday is coming, or can i say already started! hahhah.. i'm at the airport waiting for my plane.. which will arrive at 5 pm.. boring le.. here..
btw, back to the basic. i have a lot of stories to tell. but i donno where to begin. i felt like i am not myself again. but its refreshing and feels good. i want to start something new. it feels like if u want to do something that u think u can't do, but u did it anyway.. its amazing.. that the think i wanna try.
for now on, i am trying to be want i want to be for last few years. the person that i want to be before i step to the matriculation. just let the time tells what will happen in the next 5 years.. is my dream come true? or become a different than i want to be.
other than that, after listening to the lecture this morning, some taught come out of my mind. what will happen to me after i graduated. can i find a good job? can i survive in the world without my parents.
its almost 5, and i think i should stop now, i may continue later, in my home.....~~~ heheee.. bye!
hi. i'm feeling much better today. its time to do all the works and study for the exams. later, i will be going the main library to borrow some books. and i hope, it might help me to do all the works that i need to do.
i hope i can use all of my today's hours with something good.
bulan ni bulan yg paling baik antara semua bulan. bulan yg semua makhluk2 api dh d ikat kt tmpat yg sememangnya dahsyat. tp, masalah tetap ada, perbuatan yg jht, sentiasa ad, bahkn lebih lgi.
i don feel i am doing better for this month. i become more lazy and lazy. this is not what i want it to be. this month should make me become a better person, but i doesn't happen as i hope. there is no one that help me to do a bad thing. but i did it too. what happen when there is help, i may become a bad person...
my mum ask me to read quran, then i read it. why do i read it, because my mum asked or i really want to read it for myself? i even donno why. i can feel something going on in myself. and its not that good for me. my feeling and taught about my believe is decreasing day by day.. and i know its not a good and obviously tell me something.
i know that level of iman for human can go up and down. we are not like d angle where it never goes down. so, as human, we have to maintain it. and for me, i dont feel that i do it right.
i want to make it right. i want to be a better person at least for this month. this month is special and i want it to be special for me too. i want to feel the special of this month. if i can't feel it, it will be a very huge loss for me. and i don want that.
and now, i can only pray for my family, my friends, myself and all people around me to become a better person. and i hope we can take this opportunity to be a better person in our life.
i read some of my fren's blog, and i think, there are many things we donno about them. and, from the blog, we know something about them which we never think of it. impressive..
i am soooooo lazy right now. i've got assignment due next week and 3 tests need to be completed. i don have any motivation to do all the works. the scary lecturer does look scary, but only in the class. after the class, my anxious feeling gone. it felt relief and free... hahaha... sorry sir, u r to scary until i donno what i felt. but, i do respect u. u r d lecturer after all.
btw, today i went out. and i spend around 100+.. quite a number i think. but, its ok, bkn salu... hehe.. owh ya, i owe my fren around 2.40 or more for the game. i'll pay u later ok.
emm.. anyone knows about i-tune gift points? my brother asked me to buy it. but i din found it anywhere.. bcoz i donno what is it.... hahahaha... keep on searching, but donno what to search. funny.
today is very tired... i ate so much till i let it out back. errr..... lapa blit.
- next week : tests 1, assignments, laundry, fyp, my room, shopping, and so on...
i've done with the Li presentation. and its not that good...........:( i think i dont have enough preparation for it. huh. but, its ok, its done and i still have many other presentations onwards.
after the presentation, something going on about fyp. then, we had a quick survey for the site.... :)
that nite was a little bit crazy...:D
and the most important thing i have a chance to meet my schoolmate.....:) hahaha... happy..
owh, before i forget, i have a new bag....~~ ngee.... bought by my queen. hahaha.. thanks babe!
this is august. i remembered one movie called august rush. it is one of the best movies i had watched.
this post is nothing about august actually. i just make it up.
i donno what am i supposed to feel right now. its complicated. too much information and feelings i think. works and assignments or certain lectrr called it homework still haven been touched yet. its as usual, never ending and always starting new.
i don have the mo0d of writing the things that always stuck in my head. its been days already. i haven talk 2 sumone about it. and i don want to, bcoz it is only my stupid idiot bloody fool things.
there's a lot of good things happening around me actually. but, since something bad happen, all the good things become not that good although it was the best thing happen.
i hate this uspot.. and my lappy. they can't work together as a team... pls, let me finish updating the antivirus................. it can't be done if the line is always on and off like this.
for rite now, the solution and the best thing i ever done and never regret is sleep. so, g'nite peeps.
btw, u there. think what u have done to me. and what have i done 2 u.
influence.. sumone gave me this word and i failed to explain it. it is hard to explain in words because it does not have right or wrong explanation for this. but, i can share a little knowledge that i know about influencing people.
- approachable.
this will makes people easy to share or ask sumthing from u. this shows people trust and ur job to influence become easier.
- timing.
do not talk too long or too short. make sure ur words r arrange properly and ur point r reachable for others. most effective time is first 30 seconds. if this went smoothly, u can go on along way of the conversation and.. at last influence that person.
- environment.
u have to make sure ur surrounding and the person's condition b4 u trying to approach and influence them. this time, u need to be able to judge people and find the best way to start the conversation. if they look comfortable with u, then only u can make ur words...
- topic.
ur topic must be suitable for ur conversation. if ur point is to influence that person to buy ur goods, just talk about the goods and manipulate a little about the goods. make ur goods is the best thing in the world. but, if ur point is to influence them and let them listen 2 u, just express the things that they want to listen, bcoz they maybe not interested in other things. influence will indirectly given by u through ur nice words.
-confidence.
ur confidence level is judged by others when u r start talking. make sure to look charming and confident but do not, i repeat do not hesitate. if u r not sure about the things u said, just defend ur point as good as u can be. but, if ur point is totally wrong, do not mention it, just said u r not really sure. once again control ur confidence level. don over confident because people doesn't like it,, and influence job will not going so well. if ur lack of confident, ur percentage to influence people is lesser, worse none.
- attitude.
this is the most important point. ur attitude and personality will help u go through the whole process. the better ur personality, the easier to influence them. leave them to make they own decision. don be to harsh and pushy when ur point is rejected or ignored. later, u will know whether u r successful or failed to influence that person..
i think, that's it from me. u r freely reject or accept or agree or disagree with my points above. its just my opinion and any corrections and suggestions are recommended. :)
haha... my mum told me about new myvi launching for tomorrow i think, i donno... its called myvi limited edition. myvi LE.
for this version, it is targeting for ladies who looking for myvi nowadays.it came with three colours, dazzling red, ivory white and ebony black. i am not sure about the dazzling red down there.. it seems uncomfortable. for me... i donno u guys.
the price is about RM48,600 onwards..(depends on colour) fyi, it only available in AT (automatic transmission) don really like it..
for more info, googling it for urself. i had a backache and need some sleep. btw, this car is quite exclusive compared with others. :)
today, it is officially the end of my internship... i din feel anything, its seems wrong and too fast. i haven learn much as what i expected, i hate when sumthing i like will be taken away.. but, its life. when there is beginning, there must be the end. no matter how the end will looks like.
its been a long time since i have a joy of life. this was different.. i dont wanna go home yet.. i haven't settle with all my things here.. i am not done.
huhu..... if i have the 'dagger', i will used it to start all over again. i like it here...............................T_T
I’m over your lies And I’m over your games I’m over you asking me When you know I’m not okay You call me at night And I pick up the phone And though you be tellin’ me I know you’re not alone
Oh and that’s why your eyes I’m over it Your smile I’m over it Realized I’m over it, I’m over it I’m over
(Chorus) Wanting you to be wanting me No that ain’t no way to be How I feel, read my lips Because I’m so over (I’m so over it) Movin’ on and it’s my time You never were a friend of mine Hurt at first, a little bit But now I’m so over I’m so over it
I’m over your hands And I’m over your mouth Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt
Oh and that’s why your world I’m over it So sure I’m over it I’m not your girl I’m over it, I’m over it I’m over
(Chorus) Wanting you to be wanting me No that ain’t no way to be How I feel, read my lips Because I’m so over (I’m so over it) Moving on and it’s my time You never were a friend of mine Hurt at first, a little bit But now I’m so over So over it I’m so over it
(Bridge) (Oh) Don’t call, Don’t come by Ain’t no use don’t ask me why You’ll never change There’ll be no more crying in the rain No, Oh oh I’m over it
(Chorus) Wanting you to be wanting me No that ain’t no way to be How I feel, Read my lips ‘Because I’m so over (I’m so over it) Movin’ on and it’s my time You never were a friend of mine Hurt at first, a little bit But now I’m so over So over it I’m so over it I’m over it Wanting you to be wanting me, No that ain’t no way to be, How I feel, read my lips Because I’m so over (I’m so over it) Movin’ on and it’s my time you never were a friend of mine Hurt at first, a little bit But now I’m so over So over it
until today, its been 9 weeks for my industrial training. so, i got only one week left. i kinda suite the environment here... i like been forced to do something and i think i only can perform when i've been forced. its not i cant do it on my own, its just, i need somebody to encourage me to do it.
i met a new fren, she is crazy.... hahha.. funny crazy, humble and its easy been around her. its been 3 weeks since we are together. and i like her. hehe... i am sorry about ur bf, but, juz hold on. men are like that. huhu.. cheer up.
i taught i will not have any sweeet memories while my practical.. guess i am wrong then. i do have sweet memories... a lot.. hehe.. they are all awesome. we juz need more time which i dont have much. i am gonna miss all of u guys.. especially u babe. :) and i know u will miss me 2.. hahaha..
hope i can see all of u again. miss u guys so much! n always.
happy father's day to my papa and to all fathers in the world.
thank you dd..
he is the greatest daddy in my world...!!! it is because he is the only daddy i have. hahahaha... he is amazing and awesome, although he has his own agenda how to tc all of us.
i have the cooolest daddy ever. he's funny, firm, really good on making jokes and create a nonsense stories. especially when we take our dinner together. plus, he is talented in many things. i adore him and hope i can trace all his talents.
fyi, he can be a chef, tailor, contractor, businessman, counselor, plumber, imam, housekeeper, boss, worker, just name it, he will be anything for us except doctor because he has something going own when it comes with blood. hehehe... but, the one thing he always be is a papa for us.
however, not to forget my mummy also.. although this is father's day, i have to mention about my mummy because when there is my father, my mummy will also there. heeee...:)) happy belated mother's day mummy... hehe.... luv u both. take care yourself while we all are not there to take care of you guys.
while i'm here, there are few people said that i am just like my father. hahahaha.. like father, like daughter.
he did it again. huhu... tired when thinking of him, bia la.. org aneh, aneh juak... what do u want from me..... (lagu pa tah.. huah3)
btw, i found my frens here!! my oldies friends.. miss them so much. but, i kinda blurr with my primary school.. it been so long since i left them, however...this sunday, i have a chance to go and meet them again. can't wait. what is gonna be.. i wonder..
owh, btw.. i miss u too. talking with u is never ending. and fyi, once i hung up, movie the sisterhood and traveling pants stop downloading. huk3..... anwy, don forget to get your movies later.. :)
still struggling on final report for industrial training. but, i am sleepy now.. i ate ubat sesema just now.. and i feel dizzzy rite now... i think, i have to sleep now, if not, i will continued on writing nonsenses. gtg..
due date for training is around the corner.... i haven finish my report yet..
REPORT...!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa................................... help2... somebody help me......
hurmm... u know what, i kinda like this training session because i can give my opinion and learn something that i don want to learn actually. but, sincerely i like working here, with these people although they r annoying and sarcastic.. hahaha... i think i like it here because i have friend with me here. the new trainee reported last week in our department. my senior actually at high school.
emmm... i only have 2 weeks more to go.. so, i have one week to finish the report before time's up. aarrrrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! hate report.
hello there Mr. H. i am on your service this week. as much as i concern, the other bosses didn't give as much work as you do.
but, i'm glad u gave me those works. it does teaches me about all things in this area. however... Mr. H, i don really like u. the way u speak, act, think and all sort of things, i don really like it. u r sarcastic.
don ever judge me although u seem didn't do it.. i can tell.
i have three tasks that i need to submit tomorrow. all with different people and area. one is tagging the drawing, the other is estimate the roof replacement, and the other is design the slab. once i want the works, all things come together. i hate them all. huh. makes my life miserable.
oh.. ya. my lecturer will come to visit me here. 1st of july at noon. hee.... can't wait. but before that, i have to face the cruelest training coordinator ever. i hope everything will go well.
hahahaha........ happy, it was i felt today. i am very happy, can't stop smiling even till now. wanna know why am so happy? let's figured it out. together...because, i might have nothing to feel this happy 4 d whole day. :))
okay, let me see... something happen today? emmm... yah! at work, i have some new friends. trainees form poly, good looking technicians, stalker contractors (scary, but it doesn't bugs) and not to forget some new books to read.
what else... haaa..... it almost 3 weeks i am here and for the first time, i went to the plant (process area)by bicycle..!!!! oohhh..... u can't imagine how happy i am to ride a bike into the site and watch closely the contractors doing their jobs. but, unfortunately, i had been banned to climb up the scaffolding to watch roof replacement just because i did not wear the damn body harness. huh! ZeTo rules... what a waste.
btw, funny things do happen when the technician tried to explain something about what's going on (at the site), i can barely hear him because i wore an ear plug. haha.... out of sudden, i become a lip's reader. and his face turn red cause he need to scream while explaining it. hik3..
okay, enough of works, after lunch, i din go for works because there aren't any. so, i went to ENG TIME OUT. 'time out', what do u aspect? seminar, talk. the first thing that come into my mind was games. but, after i asked some fellow there, he told me that its just the time to hear people talk. huh... i am devastated.
but, it was not for long.. which, after i knew at the end of the talks we'll have some refreshments.. i was patiently wait until the talk ends. so, can u guess what are the refreshment will be provided? i bet u can't. haaa....sory, because i din thought of it to.. later i tell u because this thing also contribute to my happiness today.
owh,, talk about food.. i ate a lot today. i mean a lottt.... lets take a look of what i ate today.breakfast - nescafe with biscuits (before go to work) - a bread and 3 different kuih (at work)
branch - a glass of grape syrup lunch - white rice with fish and vege. - a glass of water
hi-tea - PIZZA HUT - pepsi
dinner - white rice - apple juice
- Mongolian prawn
- sour and hot soup
- steamed fish (ikan kod)
- a very delicious japanese tofu
- and a yummy chocolate mush
supper - potato chips - plain water
wah... i am full... tada... yup, after the talk, i got pizza hut as refreshment. so happy, because i've been dreaming about pizza lately and have a chance to eat it free... it feels so good.. i feel good.. nanananana.... i could that i would...
what else that makes me happy today.. oh, while in the time out things, i realize that my internship is a kind of GA. let me tell u something.
chief of surgery - manager of civil attending (neuro, ortho, cardio, and others)- superintendent (site, plant, building and others) resident - technician intern - trainee
hahaha.. i know, u must thought that i am to obsess with the drama series, but, why do i care, it makes me happy tough..nothing else matter. hahah... but, the different is, my internship only takes about couple months, they almost three years.. hahah..
owrite... i think my post is quite long this time.. don care, no one will blame me. felt so good when happy.. okay folks, gtg, i have works to do. c ya.
**always moving forward, because u will know if u go for it** **grab that flag and slide down**
hi. wow, quite a long time i din hit my blog. btw, i am back now. i donno what 2 say, its just so many stories i wanna write here. but, i donno where 2 start. ok, i start from the beginning. after my final exam, i came home. and the next day, i went here, for industrial training.
now, i will talk about LI. the first time went into that huge company, many things lies in my head. i taught there were any other students come at that day. however, unfortunately, there were only two people reported for duty for that day, utm's student and me. thank God there was somebody.
emm.. for the first day, we went to company briefing. omg, that company was huge. so many things need to be considered before we can started our work. we have to go to induction, wearing PPE all the time, my safety boot was heavy and big. the smallest was finished already. i have to wear size 5 instead of 3. watever, its just for 10 weeks. i told myself.
i don want to talk about people here, bcoz it was to many attitude. bad and good. so, nothing to tell.
now, its entering the third weeks i'm here. and it was fun. yep, i admit that the first week was not so good.. its getting better for 2nd week and now, i am enjoying the environment here although i had some difficulties in communicate with the staff, bcoz they were very busy. i've been neglected and i'm getting used to it. but, amazingly, i managed to get some attention and did some incredible jobs. haha.. but, its quite scary bcoz it is the first time u did it and anything might be happen if u miss calculated the thing.
i am soo tired.. i want to be happy again. get good result, manage my life properly, din forget to give food 4 my soul, i think my soul is very2 hungry now. i donno wat am i thinkin. can't figure it out. can't leave it hangin also. let time heals it and it will be gone fast enough until we din realize it pass through us.
i wanna go home. i want to watch tv, play games, and cooking for my sis. she loved my meggi with eggs. she also likes my soup, fried rice, and cucur udang. she does loved the cucur udang so much when she asked me to do it again and again.
i am happy when i am by her side. she makes me feel wonderful. emm... when i'm sick, she always refill my bottle with water. not to mention, she even cook everyhting for me. haha.. she's d best.
i am so eager to come home now. can't wait to see my little cute sista. haha... wait 4 me. i'll be around soon......
i am almost sick bcoz of certain things and people. please, go away.. do not enter my space as it is yours. i know u want to be nice and caring, its just not the right time. i dont need it.
i don want to be sick, sick is sick! it makes me tired and exhausted every time. although if i get a minor headache, i'll be whining and whine all the time to myself. this thing that made me tired and i sick of it.
just mind ur own business for this few days.. i really don have any mo0d to treat u as u want it to be. please go away. i'm saying please here.. thank you.
i am sad today. and if i am sad, mood will go away, and all things will doesn't seem right. i am very2 devastated... omg.... help me go through this feeling..
this feeling is so hard for me..i mean hard when i have a lot of work to do, a lot of assignment, and a lot of things that i need to think. all of my works is stop and would not move a single space because of this feeling.
i don't hate this feeling, hence i like it. it made me strong and thankful for what i have in life. btw, after i experienced this feeling, i will feel the happiness. it just like karma for me. duhh... lame rite, but it was a relief.
the things that made me sad recently:
- internship - tests - assignments - friends - touch rugby - family - money - and the biggest problem that contributes in my sadness is myself. i think.
i donno weather i have problem with myself or not. but as i concern everything, all this problem do comes from myself. internship, i don think i wanna go there. assignment, i din do it because i am lazy to do it. test, i flunk my test because i don have enough preparation for it. friends, i over think of them. i rather think about friends than myself???. touch rugby, i don want to go for traning, makes me feel guilty. family, i din call my mum as usual. money, my money always gone. i donno what did i do to my money.
how am i gonna deal with this feeling? i am not so tough. i might look tough, duhh.. but, i still cannot handle this feeling. i always cry alone in my room to let this feeling out. after that, i'll be as good as new. hope so..
i don have anyone that always with me here, i even don have roomate. i am all alone.. then, because of this loneliness, i think to much about people around me. i try to blame my friends and seek for people mistakes or else i am in the silent mode while my heart punching from the inside to go out. why am i doing this? i hate to do this, it hurts.. but, i.. i can't help myself.
i am not a lady like kind of girl, but i am not strong when it involve feeling, i will be beaten easily by those feeling. i'd failed to fight. i don't know what to do..
last night, i cried. and its awful. i can't remember when it stop. last 2 night, i don wanna cry. but, tonite, i cried again. but, i hold it. headache u know, crying.
it happen with no reason. cop, hold on. maybe i donno what the reason is. how come u r crying, with the headache and all that, all for nothing? useless... s, i think, there must be sumthing, and i still trying to figure it out. entah la.. aneh2..
it is almost 3.30 am. and i still awake. and typing this post. and not writing my assignment.
i have a story, this is about my construction lecturer. he is a !@#$%!!!! i donno how to pronounce it. don ask. but, he is a crap, total a-hole. want to know why?? here, i tell u why.
on his first class, i am hoping to learn sumthing interesting. construction. its my field!!! my course is all about. not all of course, but, it is the thing that people can see for civil engineering.
but, i do not get anything. zero, nothing. i even can't recognize he was my lecturer for the first time he came in the class. he din introduce himself. just stand in front of us, walk here and there, hand in the pocket, and his voice was very2 low... i've been sitting on the third row, and i hardly try to hear the word he saying. just sumthing like.. emm.. bla..bla...bla... all of sudden, class dismiss. 20 minutes, the class finished. done, what a 'good' lecturer he is. but, for the first class, i din care much. maybe he was in hurry or have some problems.
then, the second class, he come in, took the attendance, and told us to form a group. then, class done. 20 minutes sharp. what is this??? it is a class or not. i am really frustrated with him.
in the mean while, i heard rumors about this lecturer. it happen to our senior. quantity surveyor class. he only came twice for his classes until the end of the semester. the head of department can't do anything except ask them to drop the subject. they can't take the final exam because the lecturer din turn up for the class. pity them..
because of that, me fren and i, wrote a letter to complain about him. but, the department said, wait until the second week. we see what happen. we can't do anything. just wait for the next class..
then, for the third class, he din came to the class. wtf!! waste my time. i am very angry that day. really... very very... in the bad mood. then, i told my fren, i don want to go to the class until their change the lecturer.
for the forth day, i din come. i went for sherlock holmes. at least i don have to see his face.
after that, on the third week, i went for the class. but late about 10 minutes. and guess what?? he was not there. we waited until 10.30.. and then he came with the innocence face. hate it. then, he stated to talk. then, i took a pen, and a paper, i wrote everything that he said. u can read itself. what did he said in the class.
there are some intro he made about form a group, i din write it. '....... i will give u the topics that you have to choose. pick one or more. earthwork, piling machinary,
temporary works, bridges, high rise, tunneling or similar, oh yes, steel structure.
pick one or more, and from tomorrow, you will giving me list of questions. (student ask:
questions?). yes! you gonna supply me and give the questions. the more the better. oh, the more
the better. bla...bla... i'll be sitting in my room tomorrow waiting for your topics and i'll see you
tomorrow in my room. the more the better. i'll see you tomorrow in my room. ok, thank you.'
and then he leave the class. without telling anything about the questions of whatever. i donno what gonna happen tomorrow.. this time, i was really really angry that day. only my fren knew how angry i am.
the next day, my fren bought me a good anda bad news, the good news was, the lecturer had been change to another lecturer. she was much better. really different with that guy. much2.. better. like it. but, the bad news was, we had to replace all the classes we missed. wtf that lecturer. makes my life miserable. because of he, we have to attend extra 6 hours. and our class had been replaced to thursday night until the rest of the semester. thank you so much!!! F u!! damn...
however, i am happy because there is no more innocence face, don care, makes me sick all the time when thinking about construction. my frens and i were thinking, why he still became a lecturer here?. some told that, he maybe got sumthing mental. but, i donno the truth. someone said he got sickness or health problem.
soooo..... why did he still become a lecturer on our department?????. as my fren said, 'our batch had been cursed...' it happen every sem u know... there must be sumthing wrong with our lecturer.... poor my batch.
emm.. fyi, the damn lecturer have title u know, assoc. prof, Dr. la.. but, what kind of doc he is...
huh! because of he, i don have any class on tuesday. but, what to do? on tuesday? nothing... my fren got class. i am still alone in the room....
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