its been 1 month i'm working at my own place. however,.. i already felt that i've been working here for few years now.. its exhausted and stressful.


i'm really not used to be nonindependent. since 2006, labuan, 2007-2011 serdang, 2011- Jan 2012 sabah, and only now Feb 2012 kuching. i'm not used to drive myself to go to work cause i always took bus or taxi, i'm not used to tidy up my bed coz i'll tidy up when i want to, i'm not used to cook everyday coz i'll buy my food, i'm not used to clean the house and fold the cloths cause i'll do it only when i hve to. there are many things which i'm not used to do here because before this, all of this already be taken care of.. however, now i live here, evrything will change. my routine will be changed.


i'm not used to live in my own house since its been too long i'm not around.. i'm not used to be 'no friends' condition in such a long time. i'm not used to be nag about the same things all over again everyday.


i'm used to be flying around and do whatever i want to do. and the best thing before this is my house is the nicest place for me to rest. however, lately the nicest place suddenly change to depressing place ever. i hope ill be used to this reality sooner, because my life depends on how much time i need to adapt this environment...

for the first time i feel so freakin mad at u. i hope i still can make myself sane and din do anything insane.

hi hi... i'm going back to kuching end of this month. and will not come back to kk. i will stay and work at kuching until my project finished. hihi... however, i'll miss everyone and everything that had happen to me all this time. i'm grateful with the opportunities and the experiences that i've gained. thank u again and gud luck for me at the new place.

Hi readers….

There are so many things going on in my life after the last post which is the tour. After the tour, I went back to kk for work…. What else.. and its December……. Hahahah… I like December very much. Everyone likes this month. Shopping, holiday, hang out, family quality and so on. but, for me coz its my birthday month. Wahahhaaa…..

On the second week of december, I went to Miri visiting my brother. In addition, my mum and dad always come along with my jazz (the new member of my family’s car).  We went for shopping and exploring miri. We have so much fun together and the most important thing – my ka ching! fly like a bird. What to do…. Nevermind. 

After that week, its my birthday and I’m working on my birthday.. Anyway, I did one hour OT. Hahaha… I had been responsible with blackie (my friend’s car) coz she is still on vacation. What happen on that day?? I hardly remember…. Oh, went out with some friends…  learn some guitar chords. Gonna play with my sis when I’m back at Kuching!

The main event for this month is Parent’s Surprise Plan. Hahaha….. and Alhamdulillah, it went well although the flowers become ice cream.. I thing I learn, mother’s instinct are totally powerful, indeed.

After that, we had our new year celebration by watching fireworks on television… I know its lame but when u with ur family, nothing is lame. 

Gtg now. Bye!!!!!

damn.. i think i have some problem with my memory lately. biala...

on 24th nov 2011, i'm going back to my hometown cause afina's wedding is on 25th nov. however, i missed the akad ceremony cause that bank asked me to go c the officer at the evening. damn u officer... btw, my friends najwa and jiha r coming on friday nite. so, i fetched them around 8.30 pm. then, we went to kampng gersik to get some dinner. since i am sucked at roads, i have to ask an alive navigator to guide me which is shidah. hahaha.... (boh mrh a.. btw, tq!)

then, the next day, epul arrived around 9 am.  and another two are coming around 3 pm. after i fetched epul, we had our breakfast together at my house cause my dad did mee kolok for them.  next agenda was going to buntal. my dad thought to buy some seafood there. but, we were not that lucky. the seafood was so damn expensive. so, we went to damai central. new place around damai puri and also near to cultural village. however, they did not enter the cultural village cause we dont have much time and they said the  fees quite expensive. then, we went back. around 2.30 after lunch, i'm going to fetch the other two at the airport. as we reached my house, the ceremony already started. yup, there are something going on at my house.


on this day, there was an event going on which is 'tahlil ceremony' for my grandfather. actually, this event will be held at another place. but, because of certain circumstances,this event need to be done at my house instead. the funny thing while this event happened, i really thought i already told my friends about this event. yes, i told them but not epul. hahah... he's been sleeping at the guest room without knowing there was an event outside. while in the hectic moment, he texts me this ' nasib baik ak x klua pakai towel je td ha...' hahahha...

after the ceremony, that night, all of us including my parents went to BCCK. after  the pc fair which held at bcck, we went to kuching town and took some pictures with the big cats. hahaahh... then, we just go round and round. almost 10.30 pm, we arrived home. they said, its feels like program anak angkat since my parents joined together. ( actually, i feel guilty about this cause i cant bring them around kuching all by myself ).

while in the car, we did planned to go serikin before going to fina's wedding. cause, the other two of my friend are going back to kl on sunday nite. so, its decided. at 6.30 am we already on the way to serikin. abt one hour later, we arrived. owh, before i forgot. epul's shoes has been stolen last night. we only figured it out after he asked me whether i saw his shoes or not. sorry for him but what to do.., then, he used my father's croc. hahaha... we went back from serikin around 9 cause we cant be late at the wedding.

while at the wedding, afina looks very different and for the first time i looked her in the montage vid, i couldn't recognize the person in that slide show is her. she is totally gorgeous and i'm happy for her. congratulation!! alhamdulillah my friend. everything is going smoothly. may u find ur happiness and Allah bless u and ur family. i'll missed everything we did before and i hope i can be bridezilla just like u. hahahaha..... (not this time.. later laa.........)



after the wedding, all of us was exhausted. some of us went sleeping and some of them packing. around 4 or 5 pm, my dad drove us to the kek lapis store. i told my dad the other cake house is better. but he said, we go here first, then we go to next one. but, they already bought cakes from there. so, we decide to go back home. cause that night we going to see the bridezilla without the 'costumes'. heheh..

before we go home, we took a boat which known as 'penambang' to the water front. take some pictures. then, we go home. that night, as promise, we go see our friend. after having some quality time with our deary friend, we have to send the other two to the airport..

on the next day. the other two will be going back to kl. same as me. but mine is evening. that morning, something happen and i dont want to talk abt it here. long story short, we having mee jawa and mee laksa for breakfast. after sending them to the airport, i'm going home to pack my things since my flight is also that day. before that, i accompanied epul to buy a new shoes. he managed to find his shoes in 2 hours time at 5 stores. respect! hahaaha....

as u know, epul is going to stay at my house although i'm not there. sorry epul. and thanks cause understand. my mum said he went to tour at kuching all by himself with his new shoes. hahaha...

there.. my story finish here. i apolpgize to my friends if there are any inconvenient while u guys at kuching and especially at my house. feel free to come again and later, i'll make it rite. there is something i want to talk about, but, i'll write it in another post. c u again later. and good night.


p/s: since my phone kinda sucks this time, all the pictures are taken by them and i havent received any... i'll put some pictures later. if i got it.

after i read some articles and comments from the internet, i found this.

why do i miss someone? for me, when we meet somebody sometimes they can become a special person for us just because of their attitude. they share everything with us such as time, feelings, problems, ideas, an this can make us feel a better person.

and when they leave us, the pain is unbearable because we need them so much and we need everything that they can gave us. we will feel so alone when they are not around. i agree with one of the comments i read when she thinks that ' special person sows a grain of love in our heart and I believe that when we meet a  lovely person we become  in a stronger person because he/she  gives us part of his/her essence (soul)'.

 we made of small pieces of all the nice people that we have met in our life. i miss my best friend more than she knows right now.

i miss her.. and always missing her, but tonite, i know she's sick and she needs me. thus, it does make me miss her more. however, i cant be there for her. and i feel so guilty..... i'm sorry. i really am. i know she has a lot of problems rite now and i hope she can manage it. i know she can. she's tougher now.

i'll call her tomorow coz tonite she is sick, cant talk much coz of the ulcer and fever.