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Something inside my tiny brain

Posted by amirah arbi on 9:52 PM

Hello there,

I just want to write something that is inside my brain. My ommpa lommpa might found this thing locked somewhere while doing some maintenance in the brain. They found it at the corner and a bit dusty on top.

That is my feeling which i locked in the pandora box. Feeling is the most scary things in the world yet the most beautiful things ever... I locked it because i dont want to get involve in any feeling's matter. Its tiring for my mental and emotion.

I am an enginner and my work is more to solve the problem. although the problem is not mine. I have to solve it so that i can move on. However, it depends on how the person with that problem take my advise.. Sometimes, I will feel frustrated and useless if i cant do anything to fix or solve the problem.. Although actually that person did not really need an advise. they just need a channel to potray their feeling and the channel is me..

I am okay to be someone's channel. but sometimes, I also need my own channel for me to potray my feeling.. and I dont have that now...


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Just another drama. eh!

Posted by amirah arbi on 12:16 AM

Hello there.. anyone. especially you, my honey bee.. 😚

Suddenly I feel that I need to blog this thing. Before I forgot all the details. ahahaha.. 😁

This post is about that demanding lady from KL. Remember her..? ahahha.. I bet you do. 😂😂 Okay. here we go.

Since that day, she lives in that house alone 👀. No one wants to accompany her because of what she did and other factor as well as security, traffic jam and that place itself looks spooky. 💁

So last month, my two friends.. are helping hand to find a different place, which is less spooky, feels a lot like home 🏠, and also near to their office 🏢. Since they are in the same section, and these two also need a place to stay or crash because both of their houses are too far from the office 😧.

Then, after tired of waiting 😥, just last week the new proposed apartment has been approved 😊. Here, the drama begins. ahahaha... 😂.

Lets go back to that demand lady. After she knew that apartment has been approved and she got the key, she already started her demand list 📝.

💥First, she wanted to ask driver to help her to move the washing machine from inside to outside of the house. 😩 (someone said to her we can move it by ourselves, its not that hard...)
💥Second, she did asked about microwave and pot or cooker from our admin. admin said no.. cant demand more. (there is a stove already been provided, just buy a simple pot to cook then.. 😧)
💥Third, she mentioned that there is no place to hang a cloth outside the house such as the place to do your laundry👗. (you are an engineer, think! i feel ashamed being an engineer bcoz of her.. 😬)
💥Fourth, she complaint about the tv... 📺 she said that the screen is smaller then her pc monitor..💻!!!! What?? what???? 😲 omg...!! I had enough! 😤

I cant stand with her demand's list anymore😷. I think if no one asked her to shut... the list will be longer and become more ridiculous! 😨. What the heck man.. why.. why you need to behave like this. I am emotionally tired💆.

STOP DEMANDING!!! 😫. That house is perfect already. very near to the office 🌇, there is no more spooky sound 👂, the security is okay🔐, the house is fully furnished since all the basic appliances are there.. 🏣 what else do you want..!😓 maigad! can you sit for a minute, take a deep breath and just be grateful for what has been provided. not to find what else is not in there and complaint. 😵... jeeeezz... 😬

Enough is enough. please be more matured and think how to survive, not to be survived.. 😶 Life is sometimes unfair but that is life. If life is fair, there is nothing to achieve and strive... 😏

Okay... That is a long post.. I cant write it any longer cause I might puke by myself on thinking of this drama 😷..

Good night b. Hope you enjoy reading my miserable drama.

your beloved 🍎..


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Just tell me

Posted by amirah arbi on 1:15 PM

Please. just tell me what to do. im stupid enough to take this by myself. Saying that you love me not gonna change the situation. Just tell me what to do...


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I need help

Posted by amirah arbi on 10:28 PM

I dont know what is happening to me.... I dont feel so good. I cant stand the stupid jokes anymore. why.... what is happening now.. There is so many things in my head. But, the main point is.. i cant control the temper. I hate that when i loose control. i'll tend to say some hurtful things which i didnt mean to..

what am i thinking.... i dont know what i actually want. maybe, I want to be happy.. how to happy? i want to be free of debt. i want to be independent. i want my freedom. i want my money increasing. i want to live a full life. i want to take care of my family. i want to be there for anyone i cared. i want to be good in what i do..

i feel so stupid. i am demotivated. i cant keep on thinking like this.. Ya Allah... i may seek your help.. only You know what is happening to me and everything that behind it... please give me peaceful in my heart.. keep me sane in anything i do, keep my parents healthy and great wisdom and also please ease my debt..

I want to be consistance in keeping myself healthy again.. i need to be healthy and happy again. Amirah. please  keep your head up and do not lose hope.. be patience.. everything gonna be okay...


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Its tired to entertain.

Posted by amirah arbi on 9:52 PM

I was so tired today. maybe because of fasting since i havent fasting much lately. so... the hunger is different from usual.

Not much for today's work. i just prepare my minutes for yesterday and now. its in ww's hand. she wants to check everything and maybe she thinks she need to. let her be. if she want to check. just give it to her. i dont give a damn about it.

Another thing that i did for today was the report. this report really took my head of. there is too many conflict about it and i am tired of all that. never ending story. why dont we come up with one solution which can be followed by everyone. most of the staff here is the engineer and engineer suppose to solve the problm. not create the new one.

I wanted to write something but my eyes is really sleepy. i couldnt stand it any longer. so, before my hp slam on to my face, better i put it down first.

so. good night!


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Midnight...

Posted by amirah arbi on 12:03 AM

I have a mix feeling for today. For some reason, I suddenly felt that I have no one. Its not that I dont have my friend or family. there are still here. always be with me. What i mean is someone that you can tell everything about. when you are happy, or sad, or freakin stress... And of course vise versa.

It sounds like i want to be in a relationship, right? ahahaha. but, no. actually. i dont know. i will turn down all guys that ever came to me. bcoz, there is one feeling that always said, 'do you really want to be with that person?' then, i'll push that guy away.

I cant understand myself either. i do hope someone can help me to understand myself better. before this, i dont have to think who i want to call and share my stories.. i always have someone in mind. however.. now, i have to scroll my contact list and found no one i can call and share my day with... its frustating. but. what to do.. life isnt fair.


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Missing that someone again.

Posted by amirah arbi on 12:31 AM

I dont feel so good for tonight... Its hard to let go things that you are not ready to let go. But, its okay... all is well.. although life is not fair, Allah will always fair. He knew what is the best and He knew why I need to feel this way... I just have to be patience and have some faith...


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