tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-67807779710199364972024-02-22T17:26:22.502+08:00Its all about life..nothing more, juz about me, me and me..mierahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04894996400477164078noreply@blogger.comBlogger267125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-46672807481635623452023-01-08T19:11:00.001+08:002023-01-08T19:11:23.267+08:00My Manis.. <div>Manis.... are you okay... why don't you eat your breakfast and dinner...</div><div><br></div><div>and you didn't even move when the car drove beside you...</div><div><br></div><div>when i pick you up, you seem grumpy.. and wont stop meowing.. im worried.. </div><div><br></div><div>but then, you choose to just loaf on my bed.. i don't even see you groom today..</div><div><br></div><div>😔😔😔 Manis, pls be ok. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-47241909191739053122022-10-20T04:41:00.001+08:002022-10-20T04:41:40.866+08:00No one perfect <div>No one perfect. including me. i am just a tiny human that trying to survive in this cruel world.</div><div><br></div><div>How and what can I do if I am keeping to feel guilty on myself. Is it feeling guilty..? I dont know either.</div><div><br></div><div>Just assume that feeling is a guilt and That feeling always. always eat me alive. always swing my mood. always sent the black cloud with lightning out of the blue. </div><div><br></div><div>I cant live with this feeling everytime 'the lightning' strike. I'm gonna loose myself. I am not saying I am right. but am I wrong..? </div><div><br></div><div>Sometimes, I dont know what's wrong with me. why cant I think about anything with clear mind... I guess I have to start exercise and do some training for my mental health. </div><div><br></div><div>Whenever I felt the guilt. Overthinking wil come and make thing worse. There are times I think I let my Ego to do the speaking. and as everyone knows what happens when Ego take charge.</div><div><br></div><div>Along the way, I realise some points can trigger me. First, if I am too tired and lack of motivation on anything. 2nd, if its regarding what I like to do. 3rd, if I think they assuming things on what happens. 4th, not sure what, sometimes anything can b a trigger.</div><div><br></div><div>Please, I'm tired of this feeling, how can I stop feeling this way. I want to be happy and makes people happy, not the other way around.</div><div><br></div><div>I love all the people around me, I want to be this cool and chill person as I used to be. I think. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-82301324622251709592022-10-06T21:38:00.001+08:002022-10-06T21:38:00.385+08:00The EmoAs usual, I will have this episode of emotion breakdown. And this episode hit me hard.. but not really, it just enough making me wanted to cry.<div><br></div><div>This wil always. always happens if there is a miscommunication between others. I hate it so much when there is a moment when I know I'm hurting someone. regardless of direct or indirect action of mine.</div><div><br></div><div>When the moment passed, I will have this rage inside me that saying 'what have you done!!'. Then, everything just fell apart.</div><div><br></div><div>Seems like I am still at failed on controlling the mood swing or the rush of emotion when I'm having one. I am just a failure.. I am the worst.. I don't know anything.. I can't even understand myself.</div><div><br></div><div>However, this shall pass as the usual way it is. and as for now.. i just want to be in my cave together with all my furbabies.. so, adios. astalavista. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-33972288163599235552022-08-27T06:44:00.001+08:002022-08-27T06:44:59.709+08:00The TouchIt's been a while now.... I missed the moment. the feeling of togetherness. feeling of not being alone. i hope this is just a moment for some feeling to be felt and not something that i will crave later. although it felt like it. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-64882993375954963282022-05-28T14:05:00.001+08:002022-05-28T14:05:14.462+08:00inside outI hate it when I dont feel good about myself. Because I knew other things also affected. However, dont put the oil into the fire if you dont want the fire. put water instead. and some people just dont know how to just keep quiet.<div><br></div><div>Cant blame anyone cause the creature called homosapien never get enough. They never stop complaining and overthinking or worse.. presumption in anyway possible.</div><div><br></div><div>I dont like feeling like this. its tiring. its not that I choose to feel this way. give me space. give me moment. give me my time for me to digest things. I want some small amout of myself. Dont question why am I doing and not doing. </div><div><br></div><div>Ask properly.. read the room. I am not teenager anymore. Am I wrong here? I couldn't have some moment of myself for me to just linger around. I've been thinking to get my own place. but... there is always a but. i dont want a 'but' when I am going to get myself of my own..</div><div><br></div><div>I love my cats. a lot. I've been spending more to my cats than anybody else. They give me clarity. They just want my love... They just want to cuddle.. They are innocent living creatures. I love them from back to the moon.</div><div><br></div><div>Things happened for a reason. Don't question why it happened just go with the flow. Things that happened might be giving you memories or something to learn from. Nothing is a waste. Take it although it is bitter than you can swallowed. everything in the mind..</div><div><br></div><div>Please be respectful towards other people's feeling and dont just assume things that yet to happen. If its happened, it happened. I will deal with it. if its not. just let it.</div><div><br></div><div>I feel very sleepy after writing this down. the rage feeling i felt also been tame down. I think I have to be writing to manage my inner rage that constantly come up without warning.</div><div><br></div><div>I just need to nap for 10 mins and I hope I will be okay after that. </div><div><br></div><div>bye. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-79308510491150100522022-03-30T11:15:00.001+08:002022-03-30T11:15:41.136+08:00The alien invaderIt started on 21st March 2022. My sister having sort of symptoms such as sore throat and flu. We taught its a common flu because she always caught in flu sometimes. No one thought on the 'alien'.<div><br></div><div>On 22nd March 2022, I am going to work as usual and later in the afternoon, I got a text from my sister saying she is close contact for her sister in law. (she and her family always went to 'kampung' to visit the in laws on the weekend) </div><div><br></div><div>Then, all of them went to pcr test. After a while the result mentioned positive for her and her husband, but not the kid.</div><div><br></div><div>So, we all are assuming the kid is free from the alien. Me, my dad and my mum took rtk test and everyone is negative. So, its decided that we will take care the kid until the parents finish quarantine. </div><div><br></div><div>However, on the third day of quarantine the kid having mild fever and coughs. We gave him panadol for the fever. My sister advice to do rtk for him. I tried using lolipop kinda method but it failed. So the next day, I used diff method for the kid's rtk. After I successfully did the test, the result shows double line. </div><div><br></div><div>There are so many puzzles on my head at that moment. How come he still got the alien.. the pcr should detect as early as it should be. but, then.. probably the kid haven't vaccine yet, so the symptoms went a bit late? or he got close contact from his parents? since the ct value of his parent quite low. maybe he got from them.. idk, but the case at that moment, the kid is positive. </div><div><br></div><div>We all others got no symptom and already free as the rtk on day 3 is negative. But as the kid is with us since we are taking care of him, we are in the close contact status again. So we did the rtk again later that evening and turns out my dad also got double line..</div><div><br></div><div>As for now, only left me and my mom with single line. My head got additional puzzles and I just try my best to accommodate whoever quarantine.. The kid and my dad went upstairs together with other quarantine people. </div><div><br></div><div>On Saturday (day 2 of 2nd close contact), I woke up. went to buy something for breakfast, then pasar minggu and mydin to buy groceries with my mum. Then, I clean the floor at kitchen and outside. In the evening, I went to laundry, to wash all the comforter that used by us few days back.</div><div><br></div><div>In the evening, i feel very tired and got a bit sore throat. Before having dinner, I did rtk with my mum and there is the fine double line for me... I feel devastated. I couldn't let my mum stay alone and prepare all the meal for us upstairs.. So, we decided. my mom to quarantine in the room and we will do all the things.</div><div><br></div><div>Soon at that night, everyone in the same floor again. all with mask on except the kid cause he cant stand on wearing mask. My dad walks around as if he didn't get infected. I told him dont go to mum's room cause you still day 3. The alien still actively running in the body.</div><div><br></div><div>My mum didn't say much and just wear her mask all around the house. at this time her rtk intake still single line. I am so proud of her.</div><div><br></div><div>Day by day goes by.. and my symptoms become a bit worse on the caughing. So, I decided to lock myself in the room. just go to the kitchen to take food and then isolate myself in the room again.. I cant think that much cause I feel very tired all the time. The one I worry about is my mom. </div><div><br></div><div>On the i dont know how many days it has been, my mum rtk still single line. I am happy. I hope she will just stay as single line always. </div><div><br></div><div>However, on my 5th day of being positive, my mum rtk shows a fine double line. I am devastated again. I really hope she is free and she can join the tadarus for Ramadhan as she mentioned before. </div><div><br></div><div>As my mum didn't have any work to go to and she will not going anywhere, so, we just monitor her at home. where she can be as comfortable as she can. On the same day, got a news that my brother which is at his own house also got double line for the rtk. Today is day one for my brother and my mum. Hopefully we all can recovered from this unwanted invaders.</div><div><br></div><div>Ya Allah.... if this is a test for our family, help us to go through it and makes us accept this and be nearer to You. Ramadhan is near and hopefully this is a blessed for us all. <br></div><div><br></div><div>Everything will be fine. I put all my family in Your hand, help us, guide us, and make us patience to go through this. Thank you Ya Allah. Only You is the best place for me to talk too.</div><div><br></div><div>I feel so much better now after writing it out. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-69350925658341143902017-08-06T23:02:00.001+08:002017-08-06T23:02:57.938+08:00another random rage<p dir="ltr">I dont know what is happening inside me. i suddenly become self annoyed and everything become wrong. I am trying not to be angry and trying so hard to figure out why am i behaving that way. i have no idea. and again.. i am hurting the person i love. i am very frustated with myself and I know am always not good enough.. some people say, outrage kid is because lack of love. am i that? but as i know. i am loved enough with all my surrounding. its just there are something bothering me. which i also didnt know what is it. </p>
<p dir="ltr">maybe, its my fault after all.. </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-85047929048953159962017-06-12T07:46:00.001+08:002017-06-12T07:46:48.674+08:00We are just the same<p dir="ltr">Sometimes.. people are selfish. its not directly show that he or she was selfish, but its just indirectly. If you known this person, they will always talk about something or someone. Then, they will give their own opinion on what, how, why of that situation. Later they didnt realize... they are doing the same thing that they 'commenting' to somebody else... so, for me.... we are just the same. and karma does exist. what comes around, goes around...sq</p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-34910804057051627582017-05-01T21:52:00.001+08:002017-05-01T21:54:48.970+08:00Something inside my tiny brain<p dir="ltr">Hello there, </p>
<p dir="ltr">I just want to write something that is inside my brain. My ommpa lommpa might found this thing locked somewhere while doing some maintenance in the brain. They found it at the corner and a bit dusty on top. </p>
<p dir="ltr">That is my feeling which i locked in the pandora box. Feeling is the most scary things in the world yet the most beautiful things ever... I locked it because i dont want to get involve in any feeling's matter. Its tiring for my mental and emotion.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I am an enginner and my work is more to solve the problem. although the problem is not mine. I have to solve it so that i can move on. However, it depends on how the person with that problem take my advise.. Sometimes, I will feel frustrated and useless if i cant do anything to fix or solve the problem.. Although actually that person did not really need an advise. they just need a channel to potray their feeling and the channel is me.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I am okay to be someone's channel. but sometimes, I also need my own channel for me to potray my feeling.. and I dont have that now... </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-34887788547759446942017-04-17T00:16:00.001+08:002017-04-17T01:10:31.814+08:00Just another drama. eh!<p dir="ltr">Hello there.. anyone. especially you, my honey bee.. 😚</p>
<p dir="ltr">Suddenly I feel that I need to blog this thing. Before I forgot all the details. ahahaha.. 😁</p>
<p dir="ltr">This post is about that demanding lady from KL. Remember her..? ahahha.. I bet you do. 😂😂 Okay. here we go. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Since that day, she lives in that house alone 👀. No one wants to accompany her because of what she did and other factor as well as security, traffic jam and that place itself looks spooky. 💁</p>
<p dir="ltr">So last month, my two friends.. are helping hand to find a different place, which is less spooky, feels a lot like home 🏠, and also near to their office 🏢. Since they are in the same section, and these two also need a place to stay or crash because both of their houses are too far from the office 😧.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Then, after tired of waiting 😥, just last week the new proposed apartment has been approved 😊. Here, the drama begins. ahahaha... 😂. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Lets go back to that demand lady. After she knew that apartment has been approved and she got the key, she already started her demand list 📝.</p>
<p dir="ltr">💥First, she wanted to ask driver to help her to move the washing machine from inside to outside of the house. 😩 (someone said to her we can move it by ourselves, its not that hard...)<br>
💥Second, she did asked about microwave and pot or cooker from our admin. admin said no.. cant demand more. (there is a stove already been provided, just buy a simple pot to cook then.. 😧)<br>
💥Third, she mentioned that there is no place to hang a cloth outside the house such as the place to do your laundry👗. (you are an engineer, think! i feel ashamed being an engineer bcoz of her.. 😬)<br>
💥Fourth, she complaint about the tv... 📺 she said that the screen is smaller then her pc monitor..💻!!!! What?? what???? 😲 omg...!! I had enough! 😤</p>
<p dir="ltr">I cant stand with her demand's list anymore😷. I think if no one asked her to shut... the list will be longer and become more ridiculous! 😨. What the heck man.. why.. why you need to behave like this. I am emotionally tired💆.</p>
<p dir="ltr">STOP DEMANDING!!! 😫. That house is perfect already. very near to the office 🌇, there is no more spooky sound 👂, the security is okay🔐, the house is fully furnished since all the basic appliances are there.. 🏣 what else do you want..!😓 maigad! can you sit for a minute, take a deep breath and just be grateful for what has been provided. not to find what else is not in there and complaint. 😵... jeeeezz... 😬</p>
<p dir="ltr">Enough is enough. please be more matured and think how to survive, not to be survived.. 😶 Life is sometimes unfair but that is life. If life is fair, there is nothing to achieve and strive... 😏</p>
<p dir="ltr">Okay... That is a long post.. I cant write it any longer cause I might puke by myself on thinking of this drama 😷..</p>
<p dir="ltr">Good night b. Hope you enjoy reading my miserable drama. </p>
<p dir="ltr">your beloved 🍎.. </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-39876875588047540222017-04-15T13:15:00.001+08:002017-04-15T13:15:53.791+08:00Just tell me<p dir="ltr">Please. just tell me what to do. im stupid enough to take this by myself. Saying that you love me not gonna change the situation. Just tell me what to do... <br><br></p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-43725457050321833572017-04-14T22:28:00.001+08:002017-04-14T22:28:26.990+08:00I need help<p dir="ltr">I dont know what is happening to me.... I dont feel so good. I cant stand the stupid jokes anymore. why.... what is happening now.. There is so many things in my head. But, the main point is.. i cant control the temper. I hate that when i loose control. i'll tend to say some hurtful things which i didnt mean to.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">what am i thinking.... i dont know what i actually want. maybe, I want to be happy.. how to happy? i want to be free of debt. i want to be independent. i want my freedom. i want my money increasing. i want to live a full life. i want to take care of my family. i want to be there for anyone i cared. i want to be good in what i do.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">i feel so stupid. i am demotivated. i cant keep on thinking like this.. Ya Allah... i may seek your help.. only You know what is happening to me and everything that behind it... please give me peaceful in my heart.. keep me sane in anything i do, keep my parents healthy and great wisdom and also please ease my debt.. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I want to be consistance in keeping myself healthy again.. i need to be healthy and happy again. Amirah. please keep your head up and do not lose hope.. be patience.. everything gonna be okay...</p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-70501028044507501222017-04-05T21:52:00.001+08:002017-04-05T21:52:07.985+08:00Its tired to entertain.<p dir="ltr">I was so tired today. maybe because of fasting since i havent fasting much lately. so... the hunger is different from usual. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Not much for today's work. i just prepare my minutes for yesterday and now. its in ww's hand. she wants to check everything and maybe she thinks she need to. let her be. if she want to check. just give it to her. i dont give a damn about it. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Another thing that i did for today was the report. this report really took my head of. there is too many conflict about it and i am tired of all that. never ending story. why dont we come up with one solution which can be followed by everyone. most of the staff here is the engineer and engineer suppose to solve the problm. not create the new one. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I wanted to write something but my eyes is really sleepy. i couldnt stand it any longer. so, before my hp slam on to my face, better i put it down first. </p>
<p dir="ltr">so. good night!</p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-586360603280874862017-04-02T00:03:00.001+08:002017-07-03T00:29:39.211+08:00Midnight...<p dir="ltr">I have a mix feeling for today. For some reason, I suddenly felt that I have no one. Its not that I dont have my friend or family. they are still here. always be with me. What i mean is someone that you can tell everything about. when you are happy, or sad, or freakin stress... And of course vise versa. </p>
<p dir="ltr">It sounds like i want to be in a relationship, right? ahahaha. but, no. actually. i dont know. i will turn down all guys that ever came to me. bcoz, there is one feeling that always said, 'do you really want to be with that person?' then, i'll push that guy away. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I cant understand myself either. i do hope someone can help me to understand myself better. before this, i dont have to think who i want to call and share my stories.. i always have someone in mind. however.. now, i have to scroll my contact list and found no one i can call and share my day with... its frustating. but. what to do.. life isnt fair. </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-12911315616959612872017-04-01T00:31:00.001+08:002017-04-01T00:31:59.021+08:00Missing that someone again.<p dir="ltr">I dont feel so good for tonight... Its hard to let go things that you are not ready to let go. But, its okay... all is well.. although life is not fair, Allah will always fair. He knew what is the best and He knew why I need to feel this way... I just have to be patience and have some faith... </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-540216137879762552017-03-29T00:49:00.001+08:002017-04-01T00:37:48.632+08:00Something to ponder<p dir="ltr">Hello there,</p>
<p dir="ltr">Hi again. first of all, i dont know what am i going to write in this post. But, I feel like to write something. Ermm... yes. there is one thing. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I just want to talk about my project here. Lets give it a name... Project S. So, this project s is a very high profile project and soon gonna be the center of attraction for that certain area. However, I cant really think the perks of working in high profile project such as this. </p>
<p dir="ltr">There are too many dramas, too many rumours, too many uncertainties that i am crazy to know. why in such way, i feel very insecure about this project s. in other way, i know this project will be by hook or by crook, will finished. there is no reason it cant. and cant be left out.</p>
<p dir="ltr">The thing that i really dont like is the political issue about this project s. It is too obvious until you can really see where and how it links and who will get all the benefits. For me, all project has its own political issue since the money will comes from the certain sources. And most probably the benefits will go back to where it come from in the first place.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I just want to hope that I can bear with all this matter.. Later, in other post, i'll write about the dramas.. </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-34734277670207209672017-03-23T00:31:00.001+08:002017-03-23T22:19:48.663+08:00My dear<p dir="ltr">Hi b, </p>
<p dir="ltr">Its been a long time I didnt hear from you. Missing you everytime and everyday.. So, how are you? I hope you are getting better than before. no more crying because of silly things again. ☺ </p>
<p dir="ltr">I feel like to write you a letter since we havent text much. hehe.... I almost forgot how we use to be for the last few months last year. This is so true as the old people says, "friendship is not about how long you know the person, its about the memories you have had together". and I think i have the most beautiful memories while with you. ❤</p>
<p dir="ltr">Its 00:38 and I am still wide awake. Although I have my family here.. I have my friends here..  I still feel so alone and bored. I dont know why, but its feel empty. I feel so miserable here with all the dramas and I dont really feel to be in any part of it anymore. 😧</p>
<p dir="ltr">I wish to tell you about my drama but I kinda forget about it since the drama is too ridiculous. okay, 1 story. There is 1 lady from KL, just report duty on Jan'17. She seems okay for a month. However, after that... 😩i couldnt stand with her anymore. i cant even see her face while talking to her. It feels sore to my eyes and mind😷. She is the most demanding, cocky, bossy, stubborn and very annoying person I have ever met.</p>
<p dir="ltr">First, she demanded a company car 🚗. she doesnt want the 2nd hand car, she wanted the new one 🚘, because the new one is arriving soon. Second, she demanded a house🏠. After giving a house, she wanted the furniture especially fridge, washing machine is brand new.🏡 After giving that, she asked us (me and my other 2 friends😫) to be her housemate for the time being since the house is so new. </p>
<p dir="ltr">On th first day, she went to sleepover at my place🚪. Second day, she went to sleepover at my friend's place, because she was too afraid to live alone there 😞. That's why, my two friends went there to accompanied her to that new house 👣 on the third day. I cant go since my dad didnt want me to go (there is a reason why, tell later). Then, that night, when midnight comes, she did literally waking up my friends and begged them to sleep in her room. 😱 reason?? because she was too freakin afraid of the sound she heard outside. OMG.... what!!?? 😲 This is not all and there is a few more things she did to us. The worst thing is waking up someone which is already asleep just bcoz of terrifying of the sound she heard. 😬</p>
<p dir="ltr">There is a drama in my office too but I think I'll write you in another letter. I feel sleepy suddenly after typing all those stories. So, its better for me to go to sleep since tomorrow I have to work. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Thank you for reading this and thank you for coming into my life and put some colour in it.😍 I miss you so much and I hope I can see you again anytime soon. Love you honey!😚 </p>
<p dir="ltr">Good night my dear.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Yours beloved,<br>
🍎<br>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-90691507908222810992016-12-12T11:23:00.001+08:002017-04-05T06:25:23.346+08:00not the 1st time..<p dir="ltr">i hate to say this. but. i miss that person so much. i feel so useless when been ignored. however. i know it is not the intention... i am giving the space for us. no.. for me actually... i have to let you go. and i cant afford to hang on with this every time i have been attached to somebody. love is blind. you cant choose the person you love and which love you back. i have to cool down and hopefully this is only the play for my heart.. </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-56787913395884478732016-11-25T06:18:00.001+08:002016-11-25T06:18:11.480+08:00Bebual ngn dikpun <p dir="ltr">This little arguement inside myself is annoyed me. Idk why this thing happen. mls na ku mok rsa fefeling eh. kepak ku dh. boleh x stop. mun ad pun nk.. boh mena gilak. feel lok dirik mpun dakne rsa. shioh... bebual nyawa rsa camtok jak2 </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-31280377745283906512016-11-18T09:12:00.001+08:002016-11-18T09:12:35.640+08:00I am so down.<p dir="ltr">i am kinda down today. dont know exact reason why... But, I really need my mojojo back... anyone can give some inspiration and motivation for me to think that there is so much thing to do here.... </p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-60016772569298628432016-11-14T06:27:00.001+08:002016-11-14T06:27:05.654+08:00Something to think about<p dir="ltr">All my girlfriend, exes and scandalious are married. What is wrong with me? Oh I know, I am too in love with myself! ahahahaha...</p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-21777882907485856672016-11-11T15:55:00.001+08:002016-11-13T23:08:45.813+08:00Unethical<p dir="ltr">I am so impressed with your drawing. eh. wait. that is my drawing, you bastard!!! </p>
<p dir="ltr">How could you used my drawing. You did not even mentioned to me first. You are not just using it, you even changed it as if that drawing is yours. You changed it, put it in the nice title block and proposed it to my contractor. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Thats my drawing! thats mine. you should informed me at least. I am the one that designed it. that is my office. you are just the supplier. how could you do this to me. I share it to you for your reference. Either to check the dimension or only for internal use. Not as officially used. I could sue you by using my drawing before asking permission.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I am freakin mad after I knew this happen. I cant even talk to you let along to see your face in front of me. In the mean time, I am freakin mad at my boss too. He and she doesnt say anything about them using my drawing to do officially submission of their proposal... There is no one backup for me. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I hate them all. I feel like betrayed by my own team. Very disappointed. Mun di ekotkn hati.. xmok aku mok berik softcopy drawing pake kau. disebabkn boss ak suruh berik. ak berik jak la.. siap kenak perli 'everything you do within office hours is belong to the company' my heart hurts.. Its like been sliced and stabbed by the knife for few times. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I have made my mind.. I dont want to be involved in that thing anymore. I am frustrated. Hope you guys can take charge of that office.. Say that i am over react. i dont care. because.. that is a very unethical things to do. you should feel ashamed of yourself..</p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-806686554680522572016-11-10T06:18:00.001+08:002017-03-27T23:17:34.155+08:00My 2016....<p dir="ltr">This is the 1st blog i wrote for 2016. There are so many things happen. I am gonna post it in December post. </p>
<p dir="ltr">This is my yearly diary. Long story short for every month. Which I remember the important event that had happened.</p>
<p dir="ltr">January ➰<br>
- For this month, there is nothing much happen since I was transfered from Sipitang on October 2015. I had a very tough month coz I am still adapting the environment. 🔖Feeling hard on company vehicle because always broke down. There was one time, I had to walk back from work bcoz I have no car. 😑</p>
<p dir="ltr">February ⏰<br>
- This time, I drove my Akie to KK. ✈ I flew to Miri and waited for my parents to come from Kuching by driving my car. I continued drove from Miri to KK 🚗. As in KK, I brought my parents to sight seeing in KK. My mum loves beautiful scene and my dad just loves to travel.🗻 </p>
<p dir="ltr">March 👀<br>
- I cant really remember what had happened in this month. I think this was the month that I always took MC and been attacked by my long lost sickness, asthma🏨. I have to take a NAP (nebulizer) since I really cant breath properly at that time. And the most unfortunate event happened was my room had been attacked by mother nature since i did not closed my window.. 😔 all wet.. my bed. my cloths. my bags. 😥</p>
<p dir="ltr">April 🗻<br>
- In this month... most of my weekend was with my friend. We went for hiking, badminton, sunrising, sunset and lepaking at mamak's stall until midnight. 🎭 I love to see the scenery when you are on the top of the hill. Its refreshing and keep your mind moving and thinking. Plus, I met new friend while joining the hiking team. 🌄</p>
<p dir="ltr">May 👣<br>
- On May, I had my interview in my current place now. It was not a proper plan for looking a new place for work, just a random pick to ease my mom's request on me to work at kuchg. 💪 It was a one day trip and i have no intention to get any of the offer. I just went back to KK and work as normal. 💻</p>
<p dir="ltr">June ☕<br>
- This month was a Fasting month. So, most of the day is about celebrating raya. While in KK, I've met my new housemate which is out of sudden become my very close yet very far friend of mine.😙 However, when i was in Kuchg, I did some layer cake, prepare for raya's dishes, house chores and etc.👩 my life then, was not so complicated as now. </p>
<p dir="ltr">July 💲<br>
- I resigned from BinaPuri Sdn Bhd. We had a farewell party at our own office. The BBQ farewell. I made the chicken mushroom soup and my boss liked it. hehe... 🍜 It was simple yet memorable farewell ever. I missed working with them and I missed my work as civil eng in survey dept. 👼 As I recall back the sweat and blood for me to climb up the stairs was not easy. I really gained my knowledge and experiences through the tough road...🔨 </p>
<p dir="ltr">August 🔮<br>
- This was the month where I stepped in the new working place and environment. Its in kuchg and when I was there, at the HQ for reporting duty, there are also bunch of old people coming too, for reporting duty. In my brain, wow.. there are a lot of newcomers.. 👞 This month was very challenging since I hve to fight with myself everyday about the decision of moving to the new place. 💆 Its tiring. 2 weeks I was in HQ, kuchg. another 2 weeks move to Tondong Inn. I have to stay there since the staff house was located just few steps beside the temporary site office. 😂</p>
<p dir="ltr">September 👒<br>
- Here, I flew back to KK to drive back my Akie to Kuching. 😌 Before that, me and my sister went sight seeing at KK town and I brought her to Kokol for her birthday! 🎊. We stayed at the hotel and had nice breakfast together.😋 The next day, my parents came from tawau. Only that, I drove until Miri and then had a direct flight to Kuching. ✈ My parents continued the journey from Miri to Kuching on the next day. 🚗</p>
<p dir="ltr">October 🚩<br>
- For this month, most of the time I spend it with my virtual run. 👟 I have a few vr in october and I did accomplished it all. 🎯 I have a very high motivation in this month. and i lose some weight.😬</p>
<p dir="ltr">November ♻<br>
- I had a very memorable short breakaway for this month. It was in KK which I spend most of the time with my besties. 👭👫 I did put the summary in my ig (amirah.rb) It was the best yet tired trip ever. I missed them so much. 😌 They moulded me to be a better person and I kinda thankful for that. 💝</p>
<p dir="ltr">December 💞<br>
- For this month, I had a very special birthday ever. I got a surprise birthday party at my office.👓 of course lead by my crazy friends here. Then, I had a bowling party with my family and for the first time i almost beat my brother's score. 🎳 I had a christmas vacation just after my birthday. We celebrate at Borneo Highland. 🏰Spending time at that place was breath taking moment. ⏳ I wish to go there again, but its not me that driving up the hill. ahahah.. Not to forget... surprise present! 📦 I got a few of birthday presents from my friends.. 🎁 Thank you guys. you are the best!! 😍</p>
<p dir="ltr">I think that was the sum up of my 2016... Which... I can say very challenging and yet the most fun year ever. 🔱 Many ups and downs that I have to face. I hope I can be better for the next year 2017. 😘</p>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16366155347529005038noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-85311751569620387942014-05-09T21:44:00.001+08:002014-05-09T21:44:20.987+08:00Hunger for answer.<p>Haaaaa.... I am in the flight bound for kuching rite now AK6355. How I wish I did not do what I did last week. How I wish things will go back normal again. How I wish this ia not happening.. </p>
<p>They are several type of people that I couldnt handle by myself, which is the stubborn and ego person. This kind of people will become the pain in the ass when the time is not rite. They will become so aggresive and tough with you. However they can become gentle if you did not mess with them. </p>
<p>Beside.. I can get along with this kind of people but sometimes, the limit is overrated. You cant do anything bcoz they are powerful then you are. All you can do is sit back n let the time fix anything.</p>
<p>And now, I dont know what to think coz I din know where i do wrong. Maybe I din do anything or maybe i did something that might upset her. So, I hope she will recover and I can do my work as before...</p>
mierahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04894996400477164078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6780777971019936497.post-81546696603149996162014-04-22T06:41:00.001+08:002014-05-09T21:44:18.650+08:00Just a long note..<p>Hi there,</p>
<p>How r u? I dont know how u've been although we live together.. Here, I want to say I am very sorry if there is anything I did or said that make u mad, stressed  or annoyed. This is the only way that i know u will read this. As we've been friends for only 6 months, I barely know u and from what I knew, U are very most caring person yet very stubborn. I'm sorry if I annoyed u again. </p>
<p>Its almost a month that we din't talk to each other. I dont know whether u r mad at me or others. And I just assume at me cause u din't want to talk to me about anything u stressed off as we always do. </p>
<p>If u really mad at me or its just my feeling, please do not do this silent thingy at kuming. She really respect u as her leader, motivator and teacher. Plus, very very adore u as her friend.. I dont want the last memories of u guys is not talking to each other. </p>
<p>Because of ur absent yesterday, everyone is asking and we dont really have the answer. And that makes the situation become more tight.. </p>
<p>As for me, I just want to know why did u behave like this. Making scary face n not talking is not the solution I want and this is not a normal silent. I know u will ignore this cause u think its weird or 'lain....' but for me, i cant speak so i will write... </p>
<p>Thank you for reading this, and I hope u will find ur happiness that u r looking for. Btw, I rarely say this but I miss our time together..</p>
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