its been 1 month i'm working at my own place. however,.. i already felt that i've been working here for few years now.. its exhausted and stressful.


i'm really not used to be nonindependent. since 2006, labuan, 2007-2011 serdang, 2011- Jan 2012 sabah, and only now Feb 2012 kuching. i'm not used to drive myself to go to work cause i always took bus or taxi, i'm not used to tidy up my bed coz i'll tidy up when i want to, i'm not used to cook everyday coz i'll buy my food, i'm not used to clean the house and fold the cloths cause i'll do it only when i hve to. there are many things which i'm not used to do here because before this, all of this already be taken care of.. however, now i live here, evrything will change. my routine will be changed.


i'm not used to live in my own house since its been too long i'm not around.. i'm not used to be 'no friends' condition in such a long time. i'm not used to be nag about the same things all over again everyday.


i'm used to be flying around and do whatever i want to do. and the best thing before this is my house is the nicest place for me to rest. however, lately the nicest place suddenly change to depressing place ever. i hope ill be used to this reality sooner, because my life depends on how much time i need to adapt this environment...

hemmm... i'm bored.



last night, i cried. and its awful. i can't remember when it stop. last 2 night, i don wanna cry. but, tonite, i cried again. but, i hold it. headache u know, crying.




it happen with no reason. cop, hold on. maybe i donno what the reason is. how come u r crying, with the headache and all that, all for nothing? useless... s, i think, there must be sumthing, and i still trying to figure it out. entah la.. aneh2..



it is almost 3.30 am. and i still awake. and typing this post. and not writing my assignment.



i have a story, this is about my construction lecturer. he is a !@#$%!!!! i donno how to pronounce it. don ask. but, he is a crap, total a-hole. want to know why?? here, i tell u why.




on his first class, i am hoping to learn sumthing interesting. construction. its my field!!! my course is all about. not all of course, but, it is the thing that people can see for civil engineering.



but, i do not get anything. zero, nothing. i even can't recognize he was my lecturer for the first time he came in the class. he din introduce himself. just stand in front of us, walk here and there, hand in the pocket, and his voice was very2 low... i've been sitting on the third row, and i hardly try to hear the word he saying. just sumthing like.. emm.. bla..bla...bla... all of sudden, class dismiss. 20 minutes, the class finished. done, what a 'good' lecturer he is. but, for the first class, i din care much. maybe he was in hurry or have some problems.




then, the second class, he come in, took the attendance, and told us to form a group. then, class done. 20 minutes sharp. what is this??? it is a class or not. i am really frustrated with him.

in the mean while, i heard rumors about this lecturer. it happen to our senior. quantity surveyor class. he only came twice for his classes until the end of the semester. the head of department can't do anything except ask them to drop the subject. they can't take the final exam because the lecturer din turn up for the class. pity them..





because of that, me fren and i, wrote a letter to complain about him. but, the department said, wait until the second week. we see what happen. we can't do anything. just wait for the next class..






then, for the third class, he din came to the class. wtf!! waste my time. i am very angry that day. really... very very... in the bad mood. then, i told my fren, i don want to go to the class until their change the lecturer.





for the forth day, i din come. i went for sherlock holmes. at least i don have to see his face.




after that, on the third week, i went for the class. but late about 10 minutes. and guess what?? he was not there. we waited until 10.30.. and then he came with the innocence face. hate it. then, he stated to talk. then, i took a pen, and a paper, i wrote everything that he said. u can read itself. what did he said in the class.



there are some intro he made about form a group, i din write it. '....... i will give u the topics that you have to choose. pick one or more. earthwork, piling machinary,

temporary works, bridges, high rise, tunneling or similar, oh yes, steel structure.

pick one or more, and from tomorrow, you will giving me list of questions. (student ask:

questions?). yes! you gonna supply me and give the questions. the more the better. oh, the more

the better. bla...bla... i'll be sitting in my room tomorrow waiting for your topics and i'll see you

tomorrow in my room. the more the better. i'll see you tomorrow in my room. ok, thank you.'

and then he leave the class. without telling anything about the questions of whatever. i donno what gonna happen tomorrow.. this time, i was really really angry that day. only my fren knew how angry i am.





the next day, my fren bought me a good anda bad news, the good news was, the lecturer had been change to another lecturer. she was much better. really different with that guy. much2.. better. like it. but, the bad news was, we had to replace all the classes we missed. wtf that lecturer. makes my life miserable. because of he, we have to attend extra 6 hours. and our class had been replaced to thursday night until the rest of the semester. thank you so much!!! F u!! damn...





however, i am happy because there is no more innocence face, don care, makes me sick all the time when thinking about construction. my frens and i were thinking, why he still became a lecturer here?. some told that, he maybe got sumthing mental. but, i donno the truth. someone said he got sickness or health problem.





soooo..... why did he still become a lecturer on our department?????. as my fren said, 'our batch had been cursed...' it happen every sem u know... there must be sumthing wrong with our lecturer.... poor my batch.




emm.. fyi, the damn lecturer have title u know, assoc. prof, Dr. la.. but, what kind of doc he is...




huh! because of he, i don have any class on tuesday. but, what to do? on tuesday? nothing... my fren got class. i am still alone in the room....



emm... i am hungry, lookin 4 fo0d..


bye, see ya!

Ello everybody… enth sapa.. huk3..
Here, I juz want 2 share sumthing that happen in my life last semester…
It was very tough sem, really.. I mean it. No doubt.

First, my subject for that sem was truly disaster..!!!!!!! I have 3 lab, 1 final project, 1 trip, 3 killer paper, and sewaktu dengan nya.. I know, it was not that heavy, but if it plus wif whatever thing that not necessary, it become not only tough, it was CRUEL…!!!!!!!!!!! As my lect said, die standing… u know..

For last sem, I am also a manager of eleventh’s netball team and surprised, it was a new experience for me. Lucky me, I guess.. But, in the same time, I’m a hockey player, SU club, samthing ajk 4 college actvties, silat, not 2 forget, a lot of assgmnts, and many more.. can’t remember.. wah3..

This is my netball team.. good job..

Because of this and plus wif I am too nice to others (padan muka), there sumone takes advantages on me.. and finally, it made me become silly, unwise and emo.. in other word, unstable.. huhu…

On 23 august, I think, I became lost, mad and screaming like crazy.. dunno why.. luckily, after several minutes, my frens r able to calm me down. I was so tired and slept there (blit kwn).. thanks gurls.. dunno wat happen if im alone..

After ol this thing were finishd, I was really relief and able 2 feel the breeze again..=) however, it was not 2 long, the reports and assgmnts r ol waiting 2 b done, add with the bridge project… huhu… but, the best part is there r sum ‘funny’ things happen while completing the project. I juz luv it.. hik3…

Then… raya…!!!!!!!!!!!! This tyme raya is not bad.. but not good either.. its juz nice.. ive got many angpau.. u know.. but finish oredi..wah3.. sooo.. happy….

After raya, back at college, we continued built the bridge, and have class as usual.. then, there sumthing bad happen again… it was horrible… its about our bridge. It exceed the max weight and we have 2 REBUILT it, the horror is, we have 2 submit it 2morow wif full report and presentation. However, it’s not end there, the most terrible thing is our design has been ‘’REJECTED’ by the software we used 2 analyze our bridge.. Can u imagine how do I felt that nite??? Me myself can’t imagine… Then, sumone said that I have 2 finishes the report and let he deals wif the design … i juz said ‘ok’. I couldn’t sleep dat nite until it finishd and I overslept the next day..

The rejected design.. too many trusses..

Next, I thought ol the probs r oredi done.. but surprisingly, it become more serious… waa….. I juz couldn’t tell o write how do I felt that time. Our lect push us to submit the bridge wif the other things before 10 am and dat time is 9.20 am… nothing was done completely, bridge, report, presttn. So, there was no time to lose, I run back to college and do the presnttn, the other member settle down about the bridge and report… we managed to complete the report and the bridge at only12 pm. I thought lect din’t want to accept it, but I was wrong, he acceptd our work. There is nothing to say, its juz a wonderful feeling…

Final design.. in sumone’s car.. huhu..

Bridge was done successfully, then, there r sumthing come across… the trip 4 geology at Pahang. It was amazing because many things were happen. Sum good, sum bad, sum funny, sum annoying, sum boring, sum happy, sum neutral, sum whatever and then equal tired. Haha… but, it was impressive, knowing about stones and rocks, take sum examples, enjoy the view, it was remarkable. New experiences for everybody. However, as usual, the report will cause ol of us nightmare and migraine.. hak3… so many dramas and conflicts were happen that week. It was soooo stressful… from here, I’ve learnt about sumone behaviors, attitude, and aptitude. It was fun. I guess.. hee…

Gambar batu time trip..

After ol the reports and assgnmnts were done, it was final exam and presentations for the project. Day after day, it went through smoothly… no one ever aspect sumthing will happen again. But again, it happen 2 me. Aarrrghhhh….!!!!!!!!!!! Why me…. Huk3…

On 18 10 08, what an interesting date.. its started as usual wif cold and peace morning… like nothing will happen. And then, at noon, its ol begun…. Huhu.. I donno how it start, but it juz start and continued. I think it was me that started it, because, if I din go there, it wouldn’t happen, maybe. But, it juz happen. It is about my fren and I, closed fren, I think. Conflict, misunderstanding, cold, awkwardness, quiet continued until a week kot.. din remember clearly…=(

Later then, ol things went through as usual… plus I have scandal that sem.. hik3…funny.. it juz 4 fun.. hee… as entertainment. After that, nothing went wrong seriously. Final exam as normal as others, its tough dow! Huh! I hope I can ‘save’ my pointer. No more turun2… aminn..

Time exam konon.. wah3..

After exam, nothing else, holiday…!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ive spend my holiday wif my family.. it was very2 extraordinary vacation.. truly amazing. I hope I can go there wif ol my frens. It will be ‘incredible hulk’. Hak3… hope so.. juz wait guys.. hee… 15 more years.. wah3…
I think I want 2 stop here. I’ll story about my vacation in next post. If I rajin la.. tq

Time oliday at Melaka…

Time is precious, enjoy it!