The leftover

Recently, I think it is true that I have issues with attachment.

No reply, No assurance, No update, just give my ommpa lommpa restless. The feeling of not knowing and the waiting game hurts me.

This one person which I just knew.. Also give an impact to me. It's just felt that I have to know what happened, and are they doing ok. But, its not really about are they OK or not, it's just... I need to know the condition whether busy, free, got something, attend wedding, family time, or etc. 

I just felt ignored, if I didn't know. I mean, it feels like leftover, outsider. 

Apart from the waiting game, it only apply to certain people which I thought is important as I thought they be. I'm not gonna wait if I got a little update earlier. It satisfied my ommpa lommpa if I knew. 

Feeling ignored is the worst if it's by the person you care about. I'm not gonna say love cause it's gonna hurt a bit more. (crying silently) 

It's maybe true that I need a therapist for my issues. 

p/s: please don't let my heart hurt. If you not gonna give me the little update, do not make me wants it. Don't give me all the color in the rainbow if you only can give me the black and white.. |