okayyy.... watching pokemon before going to sleep is not a good idea and i did it.

ahh... of course i did it, if not, i wouldnt say this. all the pokemon and league's arena come into my dream. in the dream, i have to sneak in the orange arena because everyone is looking for pokemon name Dragonite, if u watch pokemon, then u know. i eventually, dont have any pokemon with me. dont know why. after that.. what a..? i x ingt la.. adusss.. but, its ok. the main point is there. heheh...

i have final tomorrow, bye, off to study.

i feel like i want to scream at this moment. my chest is trying too hard to get all the oxygen that i need.

urrghh... i'm stupid! where is all my money go? its all gone. totally gone. from four figures to two figures. wth! this is fucking scary...

i like the way when i dont like to shop or buy things, cause my money will always there. but, now, the scary thing is, i am enjoying buying things. i walk, then i like that stuff, i buy it. without hesitation. as my mom and my brother would say:

'bli jak la. bkn abis pun duit ktk ya..'
'xda duit kah? mun mok mkn, bli jak. lak bank in'

all this talk.... makes my guard toward my own money down. i dont even care about it anymore, cause i think, i will always have it. but, it is not. i am completely broke! not just broke, i am bankrupt.

i'll take it back, for everything that i said to someone about, money is not a problem. i think, its karma, now i have money problem. omg.. i never felt so insecure like this. it is not the best feeling ever.........


i am sorry to my little sister, cause u have to listen to me about all this, but, thanks to u cause give me a 'brilliant' comment about how do i handle my money.

then, just now u have to listen i am yelling about the luggage that i want to bring. sory again, i know u want to give ur opinion, but leave this thing to me. its just not a right time for u to lecture me. some other time maybe. i am not mad, just x puas ati.

i have other priority now. my fyp and final. i cant stand any other things now. i am tired. i'll think about it later. but, dont worry, i will be going home soon. and we will have our vacation. ok.

when the time i want to go home, i cant.

fucking S!!!!!!!!

i hate yahoo!!!!


when the time i really need u, u will lagging, cant open, error, take too long to respond and many more. what??


c'mon... give me a break here yahoo... i have to do my assignment. can u please give some favor for me... please2..... i'm begging u....


oh man..!! google too???? what are u trying to do to me? i really need to open the mail............. really2...

give me something good.........

last night, i dreamed about my TOCIE result. i got 2.8 or 2.6 like that.. i couldnt remember much.

but, the truth is, i havent check my result yet. i couldnt open the smp website. i tried to open it since yesterday. and i cannot open it. so, i guess i try too hard to know my result, then i got it from the dream.. but, in the dream, i am the lowest among my other friend. sad....:(

the moment i know it was the dream is when, i saw the result and it was in decimal. i wonder.. can it be in decimal. up until now, i still dont know my result... maybe after my presentation later..

i have something to say....

I MISS MY 'BINTANG' so much.......

i cant wait to go home.... but, i still have to stay here until end of may.

last time we met each other was last year.. and if my math is right, its about 7 months and 4 days we havent meet and see each other.

and last time i'm in my house was on 31 dec 2010. so it about 4 months i am not going back.

this sem is crucial. but, after last seven sems with hectic and stress, i think i am less stress this sem. i am stress, but i still can enjoy my miserable life.

it is true when old people says ' alah bisa tegal biasa'..

i have presentation to prepare. so, see ya!

after typing almost seven reaction papers today.. i feel nauseous.. tomorrow, i want to go out. have something to buy. but, before that, i have to finish up the 14 reaction papers before going out.

gees... my laptop is panas........ but, after i lap with baby wipes, nya cool blit dah. dont ever2 put ur laptop atas pillow. not a very good idea. atas kaki xpa, not pillow. cause the degree of hotness is higher when nya atas pillow compare to atas kaki.

watching 'taken in broad daylight' now. this movie makes me afraid to go out alone. cause the movie is based on the true story and that girl been abducted in the broad daylight outside of the mall at parking area. no one is going to help her while she's screaming for help..

its just scary cause i used to go out alone and walk at the mall alone.. plus, i want to go out tomorrow.. now, i dont know whether i want to go out or not...

we'll see tomorrow. now, i think, i want to continue my works. bye!

'i love u..' i really want to give this phrase to someone. but, i dont know who is the one. i still dont know what this three words can offer. if u give it to your friend, they think u remember them, if u give it to your siblings, they think u r crazy, if u give it to your parent, they will just say 'ok, do u wanna go home?'. and if u give it to someone special, i dont know yet.

everytime i'm alone, and see people with their love one, i feel like i'm a loser. i dont want to be in the relationship coz i know it is hard and a lot of challenges. i dont know whether i can make it or not. i know who i am and i am not an easy person to understand with. i am easy to know, but hardly to understand. actually, all people are hardly to understand.... -_-

yesterday was very tired for me. doing the two project simultaneously. my head feels like cracking! i want to go out!!!!!!!!! like seriously going for vacation! i just have to pass through my fyp presentation and my final exam! one month, just one month left!


i want to sleep early tonite.. cause i am too tired... not having enough sleep is very not good for your health and mood.

so, i think, i better sleep......... gud nite people.

wow... its a been loooooooooooog time since the last post. i really dont have much time to update anything here coz i have like mountains of other works. i am really disappointed with myself recently. my feelings are not stable and swinging like a typhoon.


i am so tired this past few days. my presentation for the capstone is not good. i know i can do better that dat. i hate when i have this bad memories.... my policy is even worst. i havent start my penilaian individu. the reaction paper......... i dont know how 2 complete all the tasks now. the fyp is confusing..... i dont know what to say in the discussion.. omg.. i am doom........


before that, i am very thankful to her, cause without her, i couldnt move my fingers to start typing my works.

other than that, i am very thankful coz i have her beside me everytime i think i wanna fall down.
she will try to 'kutip' me back and let me sit down and then stand up straight again. she is awesome.

but, i wont tell in front of her cooz she wont believe me, hahahahah.. i refuse to tell in front of her, cause later she will forget that she is awesome. so, i rather wrote here, so she knows and always knows that she is an awesome friend.