wah... today is the 4th day i'm at home. waaaarrrrrrrrrggghhhhhh........ i am black..!!! arrghh... how am i gonna deal with this!. for the first time, i really think about my face. ish..



although i'd done my exam on 5th nov, i still have kpp3 on 15th - 20th nov. the camp was awesome...... emm... when at melaka la. kem lambaian danau jasin. all the activities based on water... it means, wet. hehe... i loikee.. lumpur2... it was amazing.



some activities that we did there were, water confidence, night walk, obstacle run, kayak, rafting, war game. and other minor activities.. this camp was really into me. it was surely will not come out of my mind. it will stick forever and ever on my head. and i'll list this as one of my best memories in life. wah..



the most best amazing camp i ever had.. luv it so much! i can't tell how was my feeling right now. mixed up. make some new frens, learn about others, respect, and other things. so much i had learned from that camp. i wish i will have some other camp more or less like it again.


this sem was very much interesting time. so many things happen..:) happy, sad, annoy, blurr, betrayed, loyal, trustworthy, others true color, and many many things more... and i will make sure all these memories are not fade.



emm.. lately, i malas nak naip crita. adik i ad ctok, xda msa mok naip blog. nya ska ngaco. tyme tdo jak dpt naip post tok. haha.... nek tok nya ngah SPM, wish her gud of luck. i know she can do it. she much genius than me.. cop2.. i take it back. i am still genius, she just.. amm... adlh.. haha...



plek juak ayat i tyme tok.. i dikpun x phm pa i tulis.. ngantok kali.. i wanna go sleep la lok.. sleep safely. sweet dream for all of u....^^,



buhbye........

huh.. one day at home... really relaxing.. i'll write something later.. my back still hurt.. ssh mok taip ctok.. x than..

happy holiday to me.... and my friends out there.. buhbye.. c ya..:))

on this date, nice number we got there..


i had the most extreme and awesome day, and most important is, it was really worth it. wohoo....... so much to story. it was very2 exciting and amazing vacation ever since i studied here. and first trip we are all together. five of us. happy..!!



it started with a few plans. first, we take off (hak3.. xtauk word len) at 8 am. go to PKU and straight to PD. second, we go to KL first, 'shopping' or jln2, den, at noon, we go to PD. third, and last minute plan, we go to PD early in the morning. i mean, really early.. 3 am. ish.. but, some alternation had been made, we took off after subuh, straight to PD. but, before that, we made some preparation such as breakfast (sandwich tuna, thanks to fiza), air gedegang, air osmosis (haha..murah ckit), car (thanks to fina, our driver that day), and thanks to aniyah and salwa for helping in everything that morning.



we took off from college at almost 6.38 am. still dark out there. and we arrived at PD at almost 7.45 am. first thing first, we walked along the beach... breathe in the gentle and fresh breeze... then, after few minutes, we ride a banana boat. it was okay... sbb x laju pun.. maybe berat glak.. hak3.. bcoz there other people joined us. and they are not sporting... (xpa, cdak xtauk..anok jak.. hak3..). until, that abg flip the boat, at that time, best! suma masok air.. hahahah..

ni banana boat

after that, we played in the water. fina opened a swimming class, fiza was her student, salwa is trying to swim with her new technique. aniyah and i.. disturbing them. haha.. all of us had a great time. we played 'sapa tahan nafas paling lamak'. new game, 'say others name in the water' haha... blob...blub.., the funny game, 'babi of the day' hahaha.. soo hilarious. and the winner is....



haha.. tired. then, we had our branch. sandwiches, chips, teddy, biscuits, and sumthing else. din remember. we had a great time. took some pics. story mory. hahhaa..



then we continued our activities. build a sandcastle. we are so excited. ' ya..ya.. i know u r so excited about the project...' hahahha..... can't forget this phase.. we are engineers wanna be.. so happy while build the sandcastle. teamwork doe... hebat! co0l gurls.

ni castle tgh2.. yg sndri punye ad kt tepi2..

after the sandcastle is done, we went back to the beach. had a awesome time... until, 1 thing, 1 incredible thing happen. we had been asked for another ride. but this time, instead of banana boat, we got sting ray a.k.a donut. hahah.. string ray is better for me. this thing was remarkable. OMG..!! so co0l!!!!!!!!!!!!! even more than roller coaster. for me. and yet, we had to hold on with our own strength. no seat belt... (at the sea, neyda.. mok lemas ka). after the ride, many things happen. 2 of us become unstable. 1 had a very hurt arm, 1 still normal but look different.. numb i think. and the other one, still standing and excited. haha.. but, we still had a great time.. emm... maybe we had different point of view here. hahah.. depends on their condition..

ni pas men sting ray. otw g 'pulau kecik'

our last activity is take pictures. we went to the 'pulau kecik', and what else, ambik gambr la...



cut the story off, we went back at almost 4.30 p.m and arrived at college on 6.40 p.m i guess. we stop for lunch first, before headed to college.



woohh... no one will know what was five of us had felt. there is no words, not even one that can describe this trip. our trip to PD.


ok gurls... next sem, other place.. hope this will keep us bonding even better.. so glad knowing all of u. (^_^)

owh.. i totally forgot to story about something happy happen this last few days... byk glak drama.. x ingt alu cita best.. ish3.. cut the story short, after wwe paper, we had a little party rite.. yeah... its awesome.

there was sumthing amazing happen before highway paper....... me n my fren, u know who, did some awesome recording.. its fun. we managed to record almost 7 songs. hak3... leh wat album... keh3..


but, its not just that, on our last song, there was sumone knocked my door.. hahaha... cuak2.. we already imagine that our neighbours comes to scold us or maybe somone piss off at us because we were loud that nite. hahaha.. but, turns out, it was my fren's roomie.. come to seek her roomie.. hahaha... funny.. those vidoes can't make me stop laughing.. if i am in the bad shape or feeling down, i'll watch these vidoes and it will bring back my smile..


for this time, this memories is the only best thing happen in my exam weeks.others.. naaa... stressful...

but, there is one thing i like on that day. in the evening, i went to mines with sum frens.. n is weird... but, let it be. i am totally satisfied with myself on that day, i got 80+ points for bowling.. which i never had. i sang the song that i din know.. totally suicide. but. people luv it. i played dance floor, got A, but usually S, huhu.. nevermind. i still got the bonus stage. hakhak... im really happy that nite. but, only for myself. haha.. i donno how do other people feel.. i don think i wan to know either..


the important thing is im happy and others have there own things to do. no conflict. i guess..

seriously........

my life become upside down without u..


i really need u in my life. helping me going through all the challenges in this cruel life. talking to u make me feels good and appreciated. missed the old times...



please, don leave me here, alone.. i really need u, especially now. lately, i always moo0dy with others. i am sorry.. i din mean 2.. i am always felt that i am useless.. nobody needs me. but, if sumting happen, everybody is looking for me.. but only as the last solution..... what do u think i am?? ur slave? its ouch babe, when u r been ignored. and then, never been thanked.. wooow.. its not that i want sumthing back, it's just manner,ok.. and din u know anything about sivic concious? huh!



after typing this post, i feel that i am better alone. if there is sumone closed to me, sumthing might be happen. and i already felt the pain of losing sumone. n, i don wan it to feel it again. i hope so. life is unpredictable.



so, now... i think, i don need u anymore...... life must go on.. whether with or without u.. but, i still hope u will come back.. although i know u can't....... i just need to except this fact.. u will not coming back... i can't replaced u with others. u r to special to me.. u have a piece of my heart.. and it always be yours. i'll always be missing u..princess adeng..

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so many things happen in this sem.. but all are done. totally done. test, finals, assignments, projects, presentations, most important, lab reports.. hahaha... it feels free....... i love it so much! but.. sumwhere sumhow, i donno wat to do now.. i've just finish laundry my cloths. emm... i wan 2 watch movie, but i don have the new one.. boring la tgok cita dh tgok..



emm... i'm feelin empty.. hungry........... i donno, i felt that i did sumthing wrong.. did i? i thought i did.. how stupid i am... arrghh... i am stupid! biatch.. i hate myself rite now... damn... i don have mo0d to story anything.. im feeling lost.




i'll be back home on 21st november and come back here on 23rd december... i only have 1 month for holidays with my family and friends at kuching.. don like it. this is all because of camp before and after holiday..... shit! why do i need to go both!!! not fair!!!!!! always me.




i don think it can be as normal as usual.. it will be awkward. i know it. i started it.. but i donno how to end it nicely. 'it will be hurt when u lost sumone that u really love' (pnjm ayat membe jap.. hee).




huk3... its holiday time, but i ain't happy..... what's wrong with me??? dont u like holidays?? i luv holiday very much.. but there is sumthing holding my back, it do not wan the happiness... aisehmen...




last nite, i had a weird dream.. about monsters... stuck in the lift, i climb the high cliff juz to go to school.. my brother use flying broom.. he renovate it become more cool and awesome. many more.. wierd stuff and a bit scared. lately, i often got this type of dreams.. what is actually spinning around in my head?? emm... i wonder.




there is one guy texting me last three days.. physco guy..! annoying.. no, wtf that guy!! he used my number..!! sick! but, i had to give up, bcoz of final.. study is more important......




i better stop now, i donno wat i will type in here if i wish to continue.. later, after settle some issues here and there, i'll write wat i need to write.. 4 now, c ya.

Fallin' for u - Colbie Caillat

don't know, but I think I may be fallin' for you
Droppin' so quickly, maybe I should keep this to myself
Wait until I know you better

I am tryin' not to tell you, but I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'
But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life, and now I found you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standin' here, and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you, and we start to dance
All around us, I see nobody
Here in silence, it's just you and me

I am tryin' not to tell you, but I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'
But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life, and now I found you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh, I just can't take it, my heart is racin'
Emotions keep spinnin' out

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life, and now I found you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you, I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinkin' 'bout it, I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it, I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinkin' 'bout it, I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you, oh, oh, oh, no, no, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, I'm fallin' for you

aisehmen... camne ni...