i miss her.. and always missing her, but tonite, i know she's sick and she needs me. thus, it does make me miss her more. however, i cant be there for her. and i feel so guilty..... i'm sorry. i really am. i know she has a lot of problems rite now and i hope she can manage it. i know she can. she's tougher now.

i'll call her tomorow coz tonite she is sick, cant talk much coz of the ulcer and fever.

i have a lot of things going on last week. and i hope i can write it here soon.. today, i cant bcoz, i'm stress with one guy that suddenly shoot me abt my work.

HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATION MY COUNTRY, MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!

i wish i can cry right now, i've tried, but i cant. and its totally hurt. i'm vulnerable rite now. and exhausted.

i dont understand u anymore, if u have something in mind, please talk to me coz i cant stand guessing what is in your head. i know that i really dont have any problem with u, but i do care about u. so, just talk to me. i know u love talking, i know u love people listen to u, i know u have stories to tell.

but, if u choose to not talk to me, its ok. i can take it. but, i dont know how long. i just want u to know that there are other people also care abt u.

however.. the problem is not u, its me. so, no offense with all crappy things i've wrote above. i do have headache while blogging this post.

i miss u so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate this feeling.

she apologize to me about last day. suddenly i feel that i am really bad person... idk, is juast random feeling..

tonite, i stayed at the office until 9.30 pm.. want to finish up the shop drawing.. but, the computer buat hal laaa...i have to submit the drawing by tomorrow and i hope i can finish it b4 5pm.

that 'pakcik' really happy today, and idk why and what happen to him.but, he does make me smile while i'm stressing my head. :))