yesterday, i went out. the plan is panjat pagar blkg ya and walk to ss. but, time mok climb gate blkg ya, there are people watching me. so, of course i turun and go back. -_-


tetapi, i really want to go out. it so depressing in the room for whole time. that is why i need to go out. but then, its raining. so, i took a bus and go inside. then, walk from old flat to ss. nasib the rain slow down while i'm walking. so, there is nothing.


i spent around rm50+ on food and my things. and now i'm broke. huhu..


and so, tomorrow i need to get out of here. if not, i will suffer in boredom and anorexia. i dont have any intention to get either of it.


life never easy, grab that flag and slide down.

Today, I got a roommate.

My roommate is a beetle. A nice big bug that’s suddenly came into my room. At first, I taught he’s dead. But after I touched him, he’s moving and slowly I told him, ‘u can stay here if u want 2’. Then, he stops moving and just stay there. Until now even. I just assume that the bug is male, coz I can’t imagine a female bug. Hehe.. can u?

approximate 12 hours later,

however.... when i am ready to go to the dreamland, he started to fly all around my room. i dont know why. maybe he doesn't like dark room. coz he starts to fly like crazy right after i switched off the light. and now, my roommate is gone. i just have to let him go.

gud bye buggy. nice to meet u today.

i'll share something about women. most of it is for mother. for our mother. and insyaAllah, we will become a good mother.



1. Doa perempuan lebih makbul daripada lelaki kerana sifat penyayangnya yang lebih kuat daripada lelaki. Ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah s.a.w. akan hal tersebut, jawab Baginda s.a.w., "Ibu lebih penyayang daripada bapa dan doa orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia".

2. Apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya, maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya. Allah s.w.t. mencatatkan baginya setiap hari dengan 1,000 kebajikan dan menghapuskan darinya 1,000 kejahatan.

3. Apabila seseorang perempuan mulai sakit hendak bersalin, maka Allah s.w.t. mencatatkan baginya pahala orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah s.w.t.

4. Apabila seseorang perempuan melahirkan anak, keluarlah dia dari dosa-dosa seperti keadaan ibunya melahirkannya.

5. Apabila telah lahir anak lalu disusui, maka bagi ibu itu setiap satu tegukan daripada susunya diberi satu kebajikan.

6. Apabila semalaman ibu tidak tidur dan memelihara anaknya yang sakit, maka Allah s.w.t. memberinya pahala seperti memerdekakan 70 hamba dengan ikhlas untuk membela agama Allah s.w.t.

7. Barangsiapa yang menggembirakan anak perempuannya, darjatnya seumpama orang yang sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah s.w.t. dan orang yang takutkan Allah s.w.t., akan diharamkan api neraka ke atas tubuhnya.

8. Barangsiapa membawa hadiah, (barang makanan dari pasar ke rumah lalu diberikan kepada keluarganya, maka pahalanya seperti bersedekah). Hendaklah mendahulukan anak perempuan daripada anak lelaki. Maka barangsiapa yang menyukakan anak perempuan seolah-olah dia memerdekakan anak Nabi Ismail.

9. Tiap perempuan yang menolong suaminya dalam urusan agama, maka Allah s.w.t. memasukkan dia ke dalam syurga lebih dahulu daripada suaminya (10,000 tahun).

10. Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa bulan Ramadhan, memelihara kehormatannya serta taat akan suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dikehendaki.

11. Wanita yang solehah (baik) itu lebih baik daripada 1,000 lelaki yang soleh.

12. Aisyah berkata, "Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah s.a.w, siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita? Jawab Rasulullah s.a.w., "Suaminya". "Siapa pula berhak terhadap lelaki?" Jawab Rasulullah s.a.w, "Ibunya".

13. Apabila memanggil akan engkau dua orang ibubapamu, maka jawablah panggilan ibumu dahulu.

14. Wanita yang taat akan suaminya, semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung di udara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan semua beristighfar baginya selama mana dia taat kepada suaminya serta menjaga sembahyang dan puasanya.

15. Wanita yang taat berkhidmat kepada suaminya akan tertutup pintu-pintu neraka dan terbuka pintu-pintu syurga. Masuklah dari mana-mana pintu yang dia kehendaki dengan tidak dihisab.

16. Syurga itu di bawah tapak kaki ibu.

17. Wanita yang tinggal bersama anak-anaknya akan tinggal bersama aku (Nabi s.a.w) di dalam syurga.

18. Barangsiapa mempunyai tiga anak perempuan atau tiga saudara perempuan atau dua anak perempuan atau dua saudara perempuan lalu dia bersikap ihsan dalam pergaulan dengan mereka dan mendidik mereka dengan penuh rasa takwa serta bertanggungjawab, maka baginya syurga.

19. Daripada Aisyah r.a. "Barangsiapa yang diuji dengan sesuatu daripada anak-anak perempuan lalu dia berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka mereka akan menjadi penghalang baginya daripada api neraka."

I am bored. I am all alone here. No roommate to chat, no friends to talk, no boys to play with. I just wish I have a car or a bike right now. So, I can go anywhere I want although I might be lost somewhere... but don’t worry, no one care, nobody cares.

I don’t believe this either, I miss driving. I miss it a lot. Although I have said I hate being a driver, but actually at this moment, I miss it like crazy. I miss to be someone’s driver. The reason I hate to be a driver not because I don’t like to drive or become a driver. What am I saying??? Forget it. I hate being a driver because I do not know the road. I don’t know where to go and it sucks. That is why I don’t like driving.

However.. I may said I hate it, and it’s just because I am tired being used. Don’t use me as a driver, I can be your driver as happy as I like the driving, but don’t ever2 use me. i like to help, my pleasure to help but don’t make me as a puppet. i have feelings u know. just because of this, I told other people I don’t like driving.

So, I want that freakin car!!!!! But, I know I wont have it here. And so now, I want that folding bike so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want it and I want it badly….

my first week back to school. hahah..

dont know anything about the classes. haven reg any of the subjects. how ignorant i am about my own courses. ish3... these are courses that i'm taking for this semester.

- tall building design
- foundation design
- civil engineering design project
- FYP (urban mapping)
- formulation of development policy

yup, i have 5 courses and i cant imagine the workload that will come from these courses.. seems heavy.


nothing much on first week, more to unpack, settle down and relax.

wahh... i cant imagine that today is already 2011. today is 010111. first thing first.. alhamdulillah.. i am still breathing the free oxygen now. not in the hospital or other.. i think i wanna do something different for this year. i donno yet, but its gonna be different.

since i dont have any azam for last last year, i think there are some for this year :)

di mulakan dgn bismillah...

- x mok tinggal semayang. i'll try to make it work. ( mun ada, 'gantikn', walaupn no such thing as gantikn. )

- make my mummy and daddy happy. (no more 'tone...')

- maafkan org everytime mok tdo. doakn skali org maafkn kmk.

- blaja jeraya at kuching. (enough of xtauk jln... sick of it.)

- control anger.

- mok body fit. so, no more 'fuh... lelh eh..' after nait tnggak. which means, work out!

- try to avoid penyakit malas.

- attend all the classes. (unless with reasonable reason)

- mok cia org g mkn. (lom tauk sapa gik.....;))

- graduate with 3 pointer, second upper class rite?.aminnn.... ( i'll pray for my friends too...)

- wat else... oh.. jga my muka, as my sis ngerepak on the phone.

- jaga mkn.. dont eat too much junk food.

- the end of this sem, my ka ching! still at the safe level.

- i want to buy that folded bike!

- i donno what else, but i hope every choice i made will make me a better person through out this year..

- at last but not least, live my life to the fullest........!!!!

- dan di akhiri dgn insyaAllah...

and....juz fyi, my new year celebration was not that happy, or.... happy. its kinda slow and 'what? its 2011 already????' ha... that kind of feeling.. i donno how to describe it. :0

however.. the door will not show what is inside the building.. take a look, and discover it yourself.

- grab that flag and slide down-