complicated

somewhere somehow my mind started to think again. many things come into my brain right now. things i have done, things i got from others, things i wanna do before i can't do, things that i had regret before, things that i want to happen in my life and some complicated things.



soon, i will turn 21. at this point, my head do think about myself. i realize that i want to be me. but, i still can't find myself. who am i.. sometimes, i think i am like this, then on the second taught, i think i am not like that. i keep on pretending to be myself. i tried to be normal, but, i am not normal.. there is something inside me that still hiding somewhere2. i can't discover who i am. i don't have any ideas about myself. aarrgghh... this is complicated than i taught it is.. my head started to digest some new info, new feelings and new attitude of mine. huu.. i do care less about it. but,, sometimes it do bugging me out. i hate it.



everyone want to make their blog private. should i do it to? but, i don think so. we'll see..