I donno whether i want to share it here or not... But i need to let it out coz i have to...

I'll write in my language, n i bet no one will read this either. So, doesnt matter at all...

Dolok, ak bait la wlpn xla bait glak. Bait as in xmok polh mak bpk sedeh. Do anything for them wlpn ad time rebel juak. Blaja, dpt result bgus, cdak hepi... Ya ku polh dolok k cdaknya..

Dh ku further blaja, ak rsa bebas.. Tp, kebebasan ku d tahan d ats sbb2 tertentu.. Dan ak redha.. Malah, ak hepi glak2... Perasaan ukhwah ya paling sweet ak penah rsa. Sampe dpt polh ati ku yg keras ya jd lembut..

However... Suma ya x lamak.... Lps ku berhijrah gk tmpt lain, suma bnda berubah. Ak try mok maintain but dunia lua ak besa glak n ak xpt lawan sorg2... N ak ngalah. Tp, ati ak maseh nekad mok stay as it is. Lamak2... Ak xpt tahan.. Ak ng kalah. Tewas abis ngn dunia...Rsa besalah ya xpt d pike gk.. Tp, dh slalu... Suma jd biasa.

Ak jd lalai abis. Tp bnda wajib ak try jaga gk.. Cuma kdg2.. Lps juak.. Makin lamak, makin ilang jak ilmu2 ak dpt dolok2.. Adala tinggal skit2.. Bnda ak polh slalu, x d polh gk.. Malas sngt menguasai diri... Rsa mok enjoy jak...

Lamak2... Ak pilih mok jd org normal. So, ak jd org normal.. Bz ngn dunia.. Rohani d berik mkn pun ckup2 jak... Berusaha juak la mok berik mkn ya, tp napsu tok ssh mok jaga mun dh d manjak glak...

N dekat ujong2 ak blaja, ak danugerahkan seseorg yg boleh polh ak ingt balit betapa ilmu ak dolok sngt penting... Kmkorg slalu bkongsi ilmu, apa2 jak... Suma bnda masok. Ak maseh jd org normal tp berilmu skit.. Ak suka daktok.. Tp suma bnda x kekal.. Ak terpksa berhijrah gk...

Penghijrahan tok paling sakit ak rsa. Tp, ak try juak. Wlpn sorg2, still juak try for the best. Time tok ak xtauk brapa kali ak rsa besalah dgn Nya.. Ak maseh gk mcm dolok.. Cuma ad kurg skit. Lamak2 ak dh biasa..

Lps ya, ak pindah gk tmpt lain. Tmpt tok ng mencabar iman dan sabar. Mcm2 jd... Ak time tok ng totally normal. Xda glak kamboh mok molh bnda2 aneh.. Malas jak byk. Passion dh kurg dh. Tired sbb ingt keja jak x abis2...

Amazingly, ak xtauk la dakne, ak d anugerahkan gk seseorg... Org tok lain skit. Cerita nya lain. Tp, sma jak pointnya. Molah ak ingt balit betapa ak dolok byk blaja ilmu mcm2.. Ny pun suka ilmu, ak try carik balit ilmu2 yg penah ak blaja dolok, n kmkorg salu kongsi2.. Tp, suma x sma cam dolok.

Nektok, ak try mok jd org biasa tp dlm ng berilmu. Apa2 ilmu la. Yg wajib ya boh lupak.. Try abis2 unless memg darurat. Dolok ak kamboh ngn dunia sbb ak tkut dgn komitmen lain. Ak xpt mok balance nya. Ad juak berat sebelah.

N this time, ak xmok jd org normal berilmu gk. Ak mok jd org yg berguna k org lain n dlm msa yg sma i am a balance person. Dunia ada.. Akhirat pun ada. Ak mok dpt jaga dirik ak dikpun balit dri segi fizikal n rohani.. Dgn kata lain, eksesais n ngaji. Ad 2 2.. Camya la.. Hati mok d cuci lok.. Pasya jaga kan nya...

Sbb hati sngt penting.. Nya fragile glak pun xpt.. Stiff glak pun xpt. Kuatkn dgn iman, lembutkn dgn iman. InsyaAllah, hope jak, doa boh benti, hati bgus, so suma anggota lain ya bgus juak..

Hahahha... Yesterday was awesome yet surprised for me. Going fishing for the first time was awesome but getting news that my blood pressure is on the border line was shocked.

However, this make me realize that health is important and make sure i dont skip my excercise.

There is one fren which i barely knew but i think i already knew her. She juz came to my life and make my life miserable and hectic but in the good way.

She makes me feel mcm2.. Happy, sad, disappointed, fun, and all the feeling u can think of. I am very blessed that she came to my life. Thank you God.

P/s: Wak, u still my person but u r not here, she is and always b.