aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............................. i really dont have time to blog! ahhh... this is because i am working from 8.30 until 5.. monday to friday, saturday maybe sunday break. aahhhhh.... this is so tiring.
here, let me tell u how i got the job. first, my cousin asked me to register for cbg (capacity building for graduate) this cbg thing will help u to find any vacancy in any company private or government. then, place u to that agency. so, i register by sending an email to that cbg.
then, after a week, they called me and asked me to send my resume and all the certs to them. so, the next day after i got the called, i sent the thing they want.
after that, 2 days later.... i got a called from them and told me that there is a vacancy in one construction company. they only give me 30 minutes to decide whether i want the job or not. lastly, i took it after i talked with my boss..
just imagine, on wed i sent that resume, on friday i got the called and i have to report to the company on next monday. i feel so mixed up cause i have not expected all this in few days... i am shocked.
aa... to treat my shockness, my bro, my sister and i went for midnight movie. watching harry potter in 3D. and it was awesomeeeee!!! u guys should watch it.
owh, ok, back to the job.. on the first day in the new company, there is one guy that also been sent by cbg. so, there are two of us from cbg. we had our first meeting with the big boss and he offered us to become a permanent staff there. but with loww salary cause we have no experience at all. i didnt give any answer yet. i am still thinking about this promotion..
haa... so that is how i got my job rite now... ahhh... so many mosquitoes la here, i'll update again later. c ya!
owh, based on the last last post, which i posted on 1 july.. today is 12 july and i have a lot to tell.
on 27th june, i had been offered the administrative assistant job. since i have no job at all and no respond for my application, i just took the job. the job is simple. i need to do the database for the company, paper work for the program, and letterssss.......... many kind of letters. hahahah... i'm working 20 hours per week with rmxxx per month. i think its worth it or more worth it actually.
but, of course i'm still searching for the better job and hopefully i can use my degree.. *finger cross*. i did applied for job in miri and training in cbg. but, my head dont really like the cbg thing.... i probably prefer not working with the government right now. i have my own mission in life.
my previous weeks had been filled with thousand of laughter...:)))))))) not else by my favorite person, bintang!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhaahhaaha... she made me laugh everyday and every minutes. hahaha.. although she said that actually i am the one that made she laugh out loud. watching her smile and laugh everytime i make the 'face' or say something ridiculous just made my day.
i couldnt sleep tonite. i dont know why. maybe because i havent finish studying for the final or its about my thesis. this thesis thing does make me feel bad for a moment. just for a moment, because i still dont know what my grade is. and if, there are some mistakes in the thesis, after this, i dont know what will happen 2 me.
so, i have to entertain myself. if not, i couldnt start studying. so, i watch stand up comedy. and its funny. russell is one of them. he is hilarious. eddie is not bad. daniel too. kumar, omg.. hahaha.. i couldnt stop laughing until now. i think i have my mood back. :p
but, tomorrow, i have to wake up early. so, i guess i must sleep now. i can continue watching it after my thesis and final is done.
after typing almost seven reaction papers today.. i feel nauseous.. tomorrow, i want to go out. have something to buy. but, before that, i have to finish up the 14 reaction papers before going out.
gees... my laptop is panas........ but, after i lap with baby wipes, nya cool blit dah. dont ever2 put ur laptop atas pillow. not a very good idea. atas kaki xpa, not pillow. cause the degree of hotness is higher when nya atas pillow compare to atas kaki.
watching 'taken in broad daylight' now. this movie makes me afraid to go out alone. cause the movie is based on the true story and that girl been abducted in the broad daylight outside of the mall at parking area. no one is going to help her while she's screaming for help..
its just scary cause i used to go out alone and walk at the mall alone.. plus, i want to go out tomorrow.. now, i dont know whether i want to go out or not...
we'll see tomorrow. now, i think, i want to continue my works. bye!
sometimes i feel, better to be bad in the first place. and then, change to a good guy.
it's not that i am good... its juz, i dont feel that i am changing to a better person.
after i watched this one malay movie, i have too many things to say. - movie tok show rkyt mlaysia jahil glak. - over in acting and also the script - lawak xjd - storyline boring - the one i xpt accept is belakon minum beer. xplu mok pake botol nya skali. pake gelas dh ckp....-_- (i memg x stuju part tok) - malu mok crik ilmu agma (whatt??) - line yg xpt lupak ' confirm x msk neraka'.
- ad la len2 gik yg agak sensitif.....
i really dont agree with this movie. i dont like it. even though byk org ska. this movie byk glak tunjuk kelemahan org mlayu especially, rkyt msia generally. wlpn citanya polh org jaik jd bait, tp its just inappropriate, in my point of view la..
plus, org akn ekot ap yg lm movie or favorite actor daknya polh. n if they end up jd bait as dlm movie, it will be very good but if not, it could be disaster....
this last couple of days was very tiring. add on with the damn annoying holidays. i dont have any energy to talk about what happened last week. and now, i cant sleep coz tooo tired. my body feel stress and my mind clumsy. things that make me tired:
- fyp of course - reading journals and articles - thinking about all things (and seriously i cant stop thinking) - less work out (become lazier and lazy again) - my ngarei room also can make me tired.
now is 4.25 a.m and i am still awake. i donno when i am going to bed. still working. its ok, i dont have any class 4 tomorrow.. continue my work and watching grey's.
btw, this is for u, i am tired of u being ignorance. and now, i cant wait 4 u anymore, i just cant. u choose ur ignorant over me, and i'm not accepting it.
before this, i x saba nk blit kolej. but.. now, i feel like sedih mok blit kolej.. today, i woke up 8.30 in the morning. i saw my mum's face while talking to her. it's just unexplainable feeling. during lunch, i ate with my dad while watching tv. it feels so rite. and we had a high tea together which prepared by me. then, we took our dinner. together.. i miss my abg, and my sis. having dinner together is the best time ever. here, we share stories, jokes, and everything.. i think i will never get it elsewhere.
btw, after dinner, i have to prepare some cakes to be bought tomorow. my parents are there helping.. we had a great time tonite. maybe its too late for now, bcoz today is my last day. before this, i was busy with my things and they were busy with other things. we dont have much time to spend together since the holiday.
for last few days, mcm2 happen. and everything is not rite. there must be some mistakes or wrong here and there. and i, have some internal problem with my parents.. its hard to explain here, but my frens knew. and i din blame anyone for this. bcoz there is no rite or wrong. its just cycle of life. and everyone knows life is complicated and unpredictable..
i have to go now, i hope my feeling will heal soon... btw, kmk tkut mok pg kelas azlan................. and take the exam! assignment nya lom polh.. presentation fyp is coming. and kmk rsa mcmm lom sedia jak!!! huk3...
people make mistakes, no matter the mistakes are small, big, huge, serious, or some sort of something else.. they, i mean, we will make a mistake.
and there is nothing wrong to make a mistake, because we learn from it. the best learning teacher is our own mistake.
just do as many mistake we can do, but make sure to find the solution and think it was our responsible to fix it back. do not run from the mistake because it can't solve the mess we had created.
this all mistakes we did, will accidentally teach us the value of life. so, mistakes are actually helping us to grow up. however, we can't rely on doing mistake to control our life, right? doing mistakes is just an option and learning from it is to make sure we will not do it again.
but, the worst person is, they didn't learn anything from their mistakes and think that they will not do any mistake in their life. they are totally wrong.. don be this person. u will regret it in the future. because they will also make mistakes.
not to offend anyone, it is only something in my brain. like to think i guess.
and i do make mistakes. a lot.. hope i won't mess up.
i really need u in my life. helping me going through all the challenges in this cruel life. talking to u make me feels good and appreciated. missed the old times...
please, don leave me here, alone.. i really need u, especially now. lately, i always moo0dy with others. i am sorry.. i din mean 2.. i am always felt that i am useless.. nobody needs me. but, if sumting happen, everybody is looking for me.. but only as the last solution..... what do u think i am?? ur slave? its ouch babe, when u r been ignored. and then, never been thanked.. wooow.. its not that i want sumthing back, it's just manner,ok.. and din u know anything about sivic concious? huh!
after typing this post, i feel that i am better alone. if there is sumone closed to me, sumthing might be happen. and i already felt the pain of losing sumone. n, i don wan it to feel it again. i hope so. life is unpredictable.
so, now... i think, i don need u anymore...... life must go on.. whether with or without u.. but, i still hope u will come back.. although i know u can't....... i just need to except this fact.. u will not coming back... i can't replaced u with others. u r to special to me.. u have a piece of my heart.. and it always be yours. i'll always be missing u..princess adeng..
ello... hi.. the title above has nothing to do with the content of this post.
so many things happen in this sem.. but all are done. totally done. test, finals, assignments, projects, presentations, most important, lab reports.. hahaha... it feels free....... i love it so much! but.. sumwhere sumhow, i donno wat to do now.. i've just finish laundry my cloths. emm... i wan 2 watch movie, but i don have the new one.. boring la tgok cita dh tgok..
emm... i'm feelin empty.. hungry........... i donno, i felt that i did sumthing wrong.. did i? i thought i did.. how stupid i am... arrghh... i am stupid! biatch.. i hate myself rite now... damn... i don have mo0d to story anything.. im feeling lost.
i'll be back home on 21st november and come back here on 23rd december... i only have 1 month for holidays with my family and friends at kuching.. don like it. this is all because of camp before and after holiday..... shit! why do i need to go both!!! not fair!!!!!! always me.
i don think it can be as normal as usual.. it will be awkward. i know it. i started it.. but i donno how to end it nicely. 'it will be hurt when u lost sumone that u really love' (pnjm ayat membe jap.. hee).
huk3... its holiday time, but i ain't happy..... what's wrong with me??? dont u like holidays?? i luv holiday very much.. but there is sumthing holding my back, it do not wan the happiness... aisehmen...
last nite, i had a weird dream.. about monsters... stuck in the lift, i climb the high cliff juz to go to school.. my brother use flying broom.. he renovate it become more cool and awesome. many more.. wierd stuff and a bit scared. lately, i often got this type of dreams.. what is actually spinning around in my head?? emm... i wonder.
there is one guy texting me last three days.. physco guy..! annoying.. no, wtf that guy!! he used my number..!! sick! but, i had to give up, bcoz of final.. study is more important......
i better stop now, i donno wat i will type in here if i wish to continue.. later, after settle some issues here and there, i'll write wat i need to write.. 4 now, c ya.
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