'i love u..' i really want to give this phrase to someone. but, i dont know who is the one. i still dont know what this three words can offer. if u give it to your friend, they think u remember them, if u give it to your siblings, they think u r crazy, if u give it to your parent, they will just say 'ok, do u wanna go home?'. and if u give it to someone special, i dont know yet.

everytime i'm alone, and see people with their love one, i feel like i'm a loser. i dont want to be in the relationship coz i know it is hard and a lot of challenges. i dont know whether i can make it or not. i know who i am and i am not an easy person to understand with. i am easy to know, but hardly to understand. actually, all people are hardly to understand.... -_-

sometimes i feel, better to be bad in the first place. and then, change to a good guy.

it's not that i am good... its juz, i dont feel that i am changing to a better person.

after i watched this one malay movie, i have too many things to say.
- movie tok show rkyt mlaysia jahil glak.
- over in acting and also the script
- lawak xjd
- storyline boring
- the one i xpt accept is belakon minum beer. xplu mok pake botol nya skali. pake gelas dh ckp....-_- (i memg x stuju part tok)
- malu mok crik ilmu agma (whatt??)
- line yg xpt lupak ' confirm x msk neraka'.

- ad la len2 gik yg agak sensitif.....

i really dont agree with this movie. i dont like it. even though byk org ska. this movie byk glak tunjuk kelemahan org mlayu especially, rkyt msia generally. wlpn citanya polh org jaik jd bait, tp its just inappropriate, in my point of view la..

plus, org akn ekot ap yg lm movie or favorite actor daknya polh. n if they end up jd bait as dlm movie, it will be very good but if not, it could be disaster....

i just dont like this movie at all....

it starts again. the thinking.think about the policy class and of cause the lecturer. once, i start thinking about this, it will never stop. until someone or sumthing disturb me more than the thinking issues.

but now, even fyp thing also cant replace my thinking. i need to think about my fyp or other assignments or test. its tired to think about the thing that is not technical. my head is full of this non theoretical things. and all 'why' question come out frm my head.

i hate this, bcoz it is not the right time to think of all this things. but, is there any right time to think about all this think? i also have no idea. so, i think, i just screwed.

its been a long time i start to think again. because, most of the time, i will go with the flow. i will think when there is problem to solve or think other things to cover the problem.

i dont have time to sit down and think. for me its just waste of time. but, after i started to think again, i realize that i missed so many things. cause i choose to ignore everything, i din know much of what happen around me. ignoring things is easier than thinking the solution. and now, i regret it.

so, is thinking a problem? i think u should think it yourself...

thanks to this class because let me think again...

i have to start typing my reaction paper tonite, but instead, i watch anime and blogging. aish.. i was very2 sleepy this morning coz i slept only for 2 to 3 hours last nite. the foundation design really get into me this time. i like the class. i wont skip any of his class again. bcoz of 1 class that i skipped last 2 weeks, i am totally lost. that is why he doesn't like student escape his class..

after the class, i went to sleep for almost 4 hours after that. but, i think its just too much.... i feel tired and lazy. hahha..

owh, gtg, i want to continue watching the law of ueki now, bye.

i just received couple of very good news today and it was awesome. hehe...

- my dad told me if i wanna go home, just buy the ticket. as long as the tickets are cheaper than normal.

- my girlfriend will be at bangi for her training this march until may.

i am so excited! but, maybe not the ticket, coz i have zillion works that never ends here. n for the return, i can meet her.... :)

i really hope i can meet her coz the last few weeks are not delightful at all..

yesterday, i went out. the plan is panjat pagar blkg ya and walk to ss. but, time mok climb gate blkg ya, there are people watching me. so, of course i turun and go back. -_-


tetapi, i really want to go out. it so depressing in the room for whole time. that is why i need to go out. but then, its raining. so, i took a bus and go inside. then, walk from old flat to ss. nasib the rain slow down while i'm walking. so, there is nothing.


i spent around rm50+ on food and my things. and now i'm broke. huhu..


and so, tomorrow i need to get out of here. if not, i will suffer in boredom and anorexia. i dont have any intention to get either of it.


life never easy, grab that flag and slide down.

I am bored. I am all alone here. No roommate to chat, no friends to talk, no boys to play with. I just wish I have a car or a bike right now. So, I can go anywhere I want although I might be lost somewhere... but don’t worry, no one care, nobody cares.

I don’t believe this either, I miss driving. I miss it a lot. Although I have said I hate being a driver, but actually at this moment, I miss it like crazy. I miss to be someone’s driver. The reason I hate to be a driver not because I don’t like to drive or become a driver. What am I saying??? Forget it. I hate being a driver because I do not know the road. I don’t know where to go and it sucks. That is why I don’t like driving.

However.. I may said I hate it, and it’s just because I am tired being used. Don’t use me as a driver, I can be your driver as happy as I like the driving, but don’t ever2 use me. i like to help, my pleasure to help but don’t make me as a puppet. i have feelings u know. just because of this, I told other people I don’t like driving.

So, I want that freakin car!!!!! But, I know I wont have it here. And so now, I want that folding bike so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want it and I want it badly….

There are only two people who can tell the truth about urself, an enemy who has lost his/her temper and a friend who loves u dearly~

perfect is boring and predictable. everyone trying or want 2 b perfect although they know everyone wasn't perfect. but, in order to achieve the highest level of our strength, we need the perfection. perfection will lead and make us to try harder and push until we are actually beyond our limit.

so, u must try to be perfect and achieve the perfection in anything u do. but in the end, just remember nothing is perfect and u already try your best to do whatever u want to do. and never lose hope in God. at least u tried to be perfect rather than u refuse to do it because u know u cant do it. u'll never know until u try.

what u give, u get back.

just random taught in the early morning.. its 2.35 a.m..

influence.. sumone gave me this word and i failed to explain it. it is hard to explain in words because it does not have right or wrong explanation for this. but, i can share a little knowledge that i know about influencing people.

- approachable.

this will makes people easy to share or ask sumthing from u. this shows people trust and ur job to influence become easier.

- timing.

do not talk too long or too short. make sure ur words r arrange properly and ur point r reachable for others. most effective time is first 30 seconds. if this went smoothly, u can go on along way of the conversation and.. at last influence that person.

- environment.

u have to make sure ur surrounding and the person's condition b4 u trying to approach and influence them. this time, u need to be able to judge people and find the best way to start the conversation. if they look comfortable with u, then only u can make ur words...

- topic.

ur topic must be suitable for ur conversation. if ur point is to influence that person to buy ur goods, just talk about the goods and manipulate a little about the goods. make ur goods is the best thing in the world. but, if ur point is to influence them and let them listen 2 u, just express the things that they want to listen, bcoz they maybe not interested in other things. influence will indirectly given by u through ur nice words.

-confidence.

ur confidence level is judged by others when u r start talking. make sure to look charming and confident but do not, i repeat do not hesitate. if u r not sure about the things u said, just defend ur point as good as u can be. but, if ur point is totally wrong, do not mention it, just said u r not really sure. once again control ur confidence level. don over confident because people doesn't like it,, and influence job will not going so well. if ur lack of confident, ur percentage to influence people is lesser, worse none.

- attitude.

this is the most important point. ur attitude and personality will help u go through the whole process. the better ur personality, the easier to influence them. leave them to make they own decision. don be to harsh and pushy when ur point is rejected or ignored. later, u will know whether u r successful or failed to influence that person..

i think, that's it from me. u r freely reject or accept or agree or disagree with my points above. its just my opinion and any corrections and suggestions are recommended. :)

haha... my mum told me about new myvi launching for tomorrow i think, i donno... its called myvi limited edition. myvi LE.

for this version, it is targeting for ladies who looking for myvi nowadays.it came with three colours, dazzling red, ivory white and ebony black. i am not sure about the dazzling red down there.. it seems uncomfortable. for me... i donno u guys.

the price is about RM48,600 onwards..(depends on colour) fyi, it only available in AT (automatic transmission) don really like it..

for more info, googling it for urself. i had a backache and need some sleep. btw, this car is quite exclusive compared with others. :)

i am soo tired.. i want to be happy again. get good result, manage my life properly, din forget to give food 4 my soul, i think my soul is very2 hungry now. i donno wat am i thinkin. can't figure it out. can't leave it hangin also. let time heals it and it will be gone fast enough until we din realize it pass through us.

all i want to say is,



people make mistakes, no matter the mistakes are small, big, huge, serious, or some sort of something else.. they, i mean, we will make a mistake.



and there is nothing wrong to make a mistake, because we learn from it. the best learning teacher is our own mistake.



just do as many mistake we can do, but make sure to find the solution and think it was our responsible to fix it back. do not run from the mistake because it can't solve the mess we had created.




this all mistakes we did, will accidentally teach us the value of life. so, mistakes are actually helping us to grow up. however, we can't rely on doing mistake to control our life, right? doing mistakes is just an option and learning from it is to make sure we will not do it again.




but, the worst person is, they didn't learn anything from their mistakes and think that they will not do any mistake in their life. they are totally wrong.. don be this person. u will regret it in the future. because they will also make mistakes.




not to offend anyone, it is only something in my brain. like to think i guess.





and i do make mistakes. a lot.. hope i won't mess up.

i am really upset.



thre is sumthing about my feeling, though. i am, upset because some people don really appreciate what I’ve done for them. it seems that what i've done is nothing. it is not like i want to take all the credits, but, i need some respect and i have feeling too u know.

if i want to talk about respect, how do people respect each other? by doing bow, shake hand, smile.. it depends. and how do u respect ur frens now? is it the same?

it will not same if u really know each other, u will know how to respect ur frens. it has their own ways. me also have mine. different people, different ways.

but, how do people respect u? only u knows then. sumtimes, people din realize that they r actually hurting u. by, talking, playing, or others. and bcoz of that, u will feel some sort of angry, and disrespect. If we think abt this, it is juz little matters, but somewhere somehow, can change our perspective towards that person.

However…………., who is me 2 judge others, nobody is perfect. I am not perfect, same as u, and others out there, so, cut the word, we r ol the same….. we must learn how 2 appreciate and take wat ever the person is, not changing them to become wat u wan them 2 b...

arrrghhhhhhhh........... my english still broken into the pieces! hoh0h0...juz enjy.