it starts again. the thinking.think about the policy class and of cause the lecturer. once, i start thinking about this, it will never stop. until someone or sumthing disturb me more than the thinking issues.

but now, even fyp thing also cant replace my thinking. i need to think about my fyp or other assignments or test. its tired to think about the thing that is not technical. my head is full of this non theoretical things. and all 'why' question come out frm my head.

i hate this, bcoz it is not the right time to think of all this things. but, is there any right time to think about all this think? i also have no idea. so, i think, i just screwed.

its been a long time i start to think again. because, most of the time, i will go with the flow. i will think when there is problem to solve or think other things to cover the problem.

i dont have time to sit down and think. for me its just waste of time. but, after i started to think again, i realize that i missed so many things. cause i choose to ignore everything, i din know much of what happen around me. ignoring things is easier than thinking the solution. and now, i regret it.

so, is thinking a problem? i think u should think it yourself...

thanks to this class because let me think again...

i have to start typing my reaction paper tonite, but instead, i watch anime and blogging. aish.. i was very2 sleepy this morning coz i slept only for 2 to 3 hours last nite. the foundation design really get into me this time. i like the class. i wont skip any of his class again. bcoz of 1 class that i skipped last 2 weeks, i am totally lost. that is why he doesn't like student escape his class..

after the class, i went to sleep for almost 4 hours after that. but, i think its just too much.... i feel tired and lazy. hahha..

owh, gtg, i want to continue watching the law of ueki now, bye.

i just received couple of very good news today and it was awesome. hehe...

- my dad told me if i wanna go home, just buy the ticket. as long as the tickets are cheaper than normal.

- my girlfriend will be at bangi for her training this march until may.

i am so excited! but, maybe not the ticket, coz i have zillion works that never ends here. n for the return, i can meet her.... :)

i really hope i can meet her coz the last few weeks are not delightful at all..

hello..!!!

i miss u... a lot. i mean. a lot, a lot... everytime when i'm alone, u r always here for me. although sometimes its just about u, i dont care, as long as i can hear u. its more than enough..


its been 6 months and 8 days i havent meet u... wah... i couldnt believe it. its been a long time... no wonder i miss u so much.


i know u wont read this, except i told u 2. but, nevermind... i know u miss me. hahaaa... i just cant wait to finish this and meet u soon. its gonna be awesome and great.:D


just wait for me and i'll be there. u r the one most wanted person i wanna meet!


alaaa.....i have to go now, i have a test tomorrow, blom study abis. so, pray for me k. luv u so much! bye2!

everyone that i think nice, suddenly would become a total a-hole super idiot bloody fool power of seven! i donno why..... u guys a very selfish more than anyone could imagine.

i just freakin tired too make ur life easy and instead my life miserable. but now, i couldnt say more coz its already happen. and i have too clean ur mess to make sure evryone are happy.

thank God i am positive now. thinking make me wiser and better. hopefully, i can stay with it.

i dont have enough sleep last nite coz of ur selfishness. and now, u r wasting my time coz of ur selfishness also. can u see... u r ruining my life. i have many other things to do and because of u, i have to struggle harder with my own problem.

i dont understand why cant u think. u have the brain, use it moron! it will be a waste if u have it but din use it.

for myself, stop mumbling and get your job done in time. u dont have enough time to do all of it if u cant stop blabbering here.

pace urself and do ur best.

ahaaaa.... after smyg td, tbe2 teringt insiden ni.

hari rabu mlm, ad klas dri jam 6 sampai 10 lebih. this moment happen around 8, 8.10 pm. masa 2, rehat sampai kol 8.30 mlm, sy n fina nk pg bli air je kot... tp, xjadi sbb tgok ad kedai jual mknn dkt2 area 2. so, ktorg decide nk mkn la, sbb ad 20 minit lg. jln2... oder 2 laksa penang.


nk d jdkn cerita, 'abg' yg wat mee ktrog ni lmbt la plak... tunggu punya tunggu siap jugk mknn ni, tp.. msa rehat dh nk abis. terpaksa la mkn rushing2. dh la mee 2 x sdap. mcm mkn mee ngn air kosong tp pedas..-_-


mkn laju gler, x sempat nk kunyah abis2..dh la mlm... kurang jelas la pemandangan mlm 2.. so, sume yg ad dlm 2, daun tah pape die letak, suma telan. cili jgn ckap la...


dh lpas setengah mee 2 kne mkn.. tgok cili sume floating mcm kapal perang. seram2... tp, mkn jugak. dh lapa sngt. mcm 2 la jd ny.


time dh nk abis mknn 2, tbe2 perasan samting yg aneh.. dlm kepala 'aik? mane limau?' baru perasan yg limau hilang. sbb tgk kt meja fina pnya ad je.. rpe2ny... time tgh rushing2 mkn td, dgn limau2 skali ak bantai trus.. hahahahahahah.....



nnn.. ktorg sempat dtg ke klas blek b4 8.30.. ad dlm beberapa minit lg. tp, mulut dh mcm angelina jolie daaa. hahahahahhaha... xpe, at least x ngtok dh dlm klas 2.:p


p/s: msa mkn 2, tgok2 la ap bnd yg d mkn.. klau x, len pulak bnda yg msk nnt. hehe..

this last couple of days was very tiring. add on with the damn annoying holidays. i dont have any energy to talk about what happened last week. and now, i cant sleep coz tooo tired. my body feel stress and my mind clumsy. things that make me tired:

- fyp of course
- reading journals and articles
- thinking about all things (and seriously i cant stop thinking)
- less work out (become lazier and lazy again)
- my ngarei room also can make me tired.

now is 4.25 a.m and i am still awake. i donno when i am going to bed. still working. its ok, i dont have any class 4 tomorrow..
continue my work and watching grey's.







btw, this is for u, i am tired of u being ignorance. and now, i cant wait 4 u anymore, i just cant. u choose ur ignorant over me, and i'm not accepting it.