I was so tired today. maybe because of fasting since i havent fasting much lately. so... the hunger is different from usual.

Not much for today's work. i just prepare my minutes for yesterday and now. its in ww's hand. she wants to check everything and maybe she thinks she need to. let her be. if she want to check. just give it to her. i dont give a damn about it.

Another thing that i did for today was the report. this report really took my head of. there is too many conflict about it and i am tired of all that. never ending story. why dont we come up with one solution which can be followed by everyone. most of the staff here is the engineer and engineer suppose to solve the problm. not create the new one.

I wanted to write something but my eyes is really sleepy. i couldnt stand it any longer. so, before my hp slam on to my face, better i put it down first.

so. good night!

I have a mix feeling for today. For some reason, I suddenly felt that I have no one. Its not that I dont have my friend or family. they are still here. always be with me. What i mean is someone that you can tell everything about. when you are happy, or sad, or freakin stress... And of course vise versa.

It sounds like i want to be in a relationship, right? ahahaha. but, no. actually. i dont know. i will turn down all guys that ever came to me. bcoz, there is one feeling that always said, 'do you really want to be with that person?' then, i'll push that guy away.

I cant understand myself either. i do hope someone can help me to understand myself better. before this, i dont have to think who i want to call and share my stories.. i always have someone in mind. however.. now, i have to scroll my contact list and found no one i can call and share my day with... its frustating. but. what to do.. life isnt fair.

I dont feel so good for tonight... Its hard to let go things that you are not ready to let go. But, its okay... all is well.. although life is not fair, Allah will always fair. He knew what is the best and He knew why I need to feel this way... I just have to be patience and have some faith...

Hello there,

Hi again. first of all, i dont know what am i going to write in this post. But, I feel like to write something. Ermm... yes. there is one thing.

I just want to talk about my project here. Lets give it a name... Project S. So, this project s is a very high profile project and soon gonna be the center of attraction for that certain area. However, I cant really think the perks of working in high profile project such as this.

There are too many dramas, too many rumours, too many uncertainties that i am crazy to know. why in such way, i feel very insecure about this project s. in other way, i know this project will be by hook or by crook, will finished. there is no reason it cant. and cant be left out.

The thing that i really dont like is the political issue about this project s. It is too obvious until you can really see where and how it links and who will get all the benefits. For me, all project has its own political issue since the money will comes from the certain sources. And most probably the benefits will go back to where it come from in the first place.

I just want to hope that I can bear with all this matter.. Later, in other post, i'll write about the dramas..

Hi b,

Its been a long time I didnt hear from you. Missing you everytime and everyday.. So, how are you? I hope you are getting better than before. no more crying because of silly things again. ☺

I feel like to write you a letter since we havent text much. hehe.... I almost forgot how we use to be for the last few months last year. This is so true as the old people says, "friendship is not about how long you know the person, its about the memories you have had together". and I think i have the most beautiful memories while with you. ❤

Its 00:38 and I am still wide awake. Although I have my family here.. I have my friends here..  I still feel so alone and bored. I dont know why, but its feel empty. I feel so miserable here with all the dramas and I dont really feel to be in any part of it anymore. 😧

I wish to tell you about my drama but I kinda forget about it since the drama is too ridiculous. okay, 1 story. There is 1 lady from KL, just report duty on Jan'17. She seems okay for a month. However, after that... 😩i couldnt stand with her anymore. i cant even see her face while talking to her. It feels sore to my eyes and mind😷. She is the most demanding, cocky, bossy, stubborn and very annoying person I have ever met.

First, she demanded a company car 🚗. she doesnt want the 2nd hand car, she wanted the new one 🚘, because the new one is arriving soon. Second, she demanded a house🏠. After giving a house, she wanted the furniture especially fridge, washing machine is brand new.🏡 After giving that, she asked us (me and my other 2 friends😫) to be her housemate for the time being since the house is so new.

On th first day, she went to sleepover at my place🚪. Second day, she went to sleepover at my friend's place, because she was too afraid to live alone there 😞. That's why, my two friends went there to accompanied her to that new house 👣 on the third day. I cant go since my dad didnt want me to go (there is a reason why, tell later). Then, that night, when midnight comes, she did literally waking up my friends and begged them to sleep in her room. 😱 reason?? because she was too freakin afraid of the sound she heard outside. OMG.... what!!?? 😲 This is not all and there is a few more things she did to us. The worst thing is waking up someone which is already asleep just bcoz of terrifying of the sound she heard. 😬

There is a drama in my office too but I think I'll write you in another letter. I feel sleepy suddenly after typing all those stories. So, its better for me to go to sleep since tomorrow I have to work.

Thank you for reading this and thank you for coming into my life and put some colour in it.😍 I miss you so much and I hope I can see you again anytime soon. Love you honey!😚

Good night my dear.

Yours beloved,
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i hate to say this. but. i miss that person so much. i feel so useless when been ignored. however. i know it is not the intention... i am giving the space for us. no.. for me actually... i have to let you go. and i cant afford to hang on with this every time i have been attached to somebody. love is blind. you cant choose the person you love and which love you back. i have to cool down and hopefully this is only the play for my heart..

This little arguement inside myself is annoyed me. Idk why this thing happen. mls na ku mok rsa fefeling eh. kepak ku dh. boleh x stop. mun ad pun nk.. boh mena gilak. feel lok dirik mpun dakne rsa. shioh... bebual nyawa rsa camtok jak2